SKIN TO SKIN...POSSIBLE SPOILERS

[sazdaz]

NONE OF THESE CHARACTERS BELONG TO ME BUT TO TPTB AT NBC AND WARNER.

Although she felt sick to her stomach she knew she had to go up there,all the times she worked in the NICU ,she never once imagined she would be in this position.she didn't go up there at all yesterday afraid of what would await her.looking around at all those somber faces, all those parents just waiting to hear a bit of good news that day.she couldn't do it,the fact that she knew almost everyone in that dept didn't help,the fact that she knew what every monitor was for what every line going in his tiny body was terrified her even more .she reached for a tissue out of her pocket and wiped the tears that were trickling down her pale cheeks.a sudden flash back to that day 10 days ago when everything went wrong made her try to keep her tears in check.
"how are you abby",she felt a hand upon her shoulder and spun around.
"fine i guess kerry",after all those years of working together,all those times she'd laughed when people refered to kerry weaver being a ice queen bitch or whatever ,when it came down to it kerry was here for her,sure neela had been up to see them both but abby knew how neela felt about NICU but kerry came on a daily basis and seemed genuinly concerned.
"so how's the little man doing today"
"the same i guess".abby shrugged her shoulders and looked towards the NICU door"i can't do it today kerry,
i can't face another day of not knowing what's going to happen,another day of Luka telling me everythings gonna be ok,when i know there is a chance it wont be.
"where is luka",kerry looked around but couldn't see him.
"he went home,Dr Coburn sent him home i think he was getting on the staff's nerves,you know with all the questions",a small smile swept quickly across her face as she remembered Luka a couple of days ago stood vigilantly over the staff whenever they went near their son"it's ok to be scared abby,even terrified you are not a doctor here you are a mother of a sick child,but he's a fighter he's already shown us that ,now are you going to come in quietly or am i going to have to drag you in.
abby let out a small laugh and swung open the doors.as they walked through the doors dr coburn came towards them"ah ,here you are abby,we just rang the ward we wanted you to come down",abby tried to look behind her toward the incubator where her son was but couldn't see past"why?what's wrong?what's happened?"panic was starting to creep in.Kerry put a reasuring hand on her arm
dont worry,everything's fine abby,we just thought you'd like to give tha little boy of yours a cuddle this morning".
"you mean that,i mean is he strong enough,i dont want to if it comprimises him in any way",although she'd said those words abby's hands were itching to get hold of him.yes she'd stroked his small downy head and held on to his tiny hands but never dared to think about holding him.
"abby you know as well as do that babies especially NICU ones need to be held.do you want to hold your son?"she smiled knowing what the reaction would be.
"of course i do,can someone ring Luka for me,im sure he wouldn't mind if we woke him"for the first time in god knows how long she was smiling.as dr coburn moved aside abby saw that a nurse was just fiishing off chanding his nappy.the nurse looked and smiled."if you want to sit down in that armchair next to the cot i'll pass him over to you abby",
"i think i'll leave you to it abby",kerry suddenly felt like she shouldn't be there ,as if she would be intruding upon this perfect moment.
"please stay kerry,i want you to stay,that's if you don't mind"
"of course i dont mind",tears sprung into her eyes as she remembered when sandy had first held Henry in the
NICU.
The nurse carefully walked over to where abby was now settled,"actually abby if you want to we could pop him down your nightdress,a little skin to skin often settles them better",the baby started squiming in her hands.
"ok,i'll try that", slowly the nurse slid the little baby down the front of abby "there you go .i'll leave you alone for a while,buzz if you want us for anything"
"how does that feel abby,pretty amazing i bet"kerry stroked the back of abby's head.
but abby didn't hear her she was so absorbed in taking in every little detail of her son.and for the first time she thought about the future.

hope you like it.

[Lubyfanatic316]

I love it can't wait for the next part!

[<3 LubyII <3]

That was awesome, can't wait for the next part!

[lubyfan]

That's really good Update soon.

[sazdaz]

Luka's POV

He must have taken those stairs three at a time the lift would have taken too long.he had to get there now,whatever it was Abby needed him there and he needed her just as much.he stopped just outside the door and took a deep breath,,as soon as the door opened so did his jaw.then the tears came,he didn't know where from,there were no sobs just tears streaming down his face as if all the pent up stress of the past few days were beind wrung from him.Abby turned around at beckoned him over"shh he's sleeping",she brushed her lips over the dark mass of downy hair upon the tiny baby's head.
"is he ok ?,i mean what lines does he have in?,what meds is he on?"Luka picked up the chart which was lying upon a nearby table.
"luka he's fine,but i just need to keep this oxygen pipe near to his face".Luka bent down and stroked the side of the baby's face with a finger "hello little one ,dont' go scaring your mom and dad like that again,you hear me",as if on cue the baby opened one eye and stared right at him.
"Luka,do you think we can give him a name ,im sick of calling him baby all the time"the baby made a tiny miewing noise and screwed his face up.Luka looked up and saw a nurse coming over.
"I think that son of yours needs a feed,she attatched a small shringe onto a tube and poured in some milk."here you go dad,you can hold that",she smiled at Luka who stood up to hold the feed.almost at once the baby settled."what names have you got then"Luka said as he looked down on his family
"i kind of like Matthew and Daniel,good old fashioned names,how about you",she ajusted the baby slightly so his head was more on her shoulder now
"i was thinking about a old friend from croatia last night when i was here,he was missing a leg,minefield i think ,but everything that was put in his way he overcame,he was a fighter just like this little one,his name was Josef".he looked as the last of the feed tricked down the tube and into the childs belly.
"that's a beautiful name Luka,how come youv'e never told me that before"
"never really thought about it before last night"
"well i like it Josef lockhart kovac.".Abby's arms felt tired so she beckoned over the nurse from before who decided that Josef has had enough for today and needed his rest
"so how did that feel mom"Luka wrapped his arms around abby's waist carefull not to hurt her scar.
"it felt good,well more than good,great pretty damn great".

[Lubyfanatic316]

Love the update! Can't wait for the next part!

[<3 LubyII <3]

Loved it!

[merc]

Nice story, but I think someone was watching GMTV this morning

[sazdaz]

why what was on GMTV? i didn't see it cos kids were watching c-beebies all morning.

[lubyfan]

Good update!

[Noora]

Great!!

[cheryl]

Oh My God you have captured the moment perfectly!!!


Thats excatly how imagine that scene to take place.


Is there anychance of an update?

[luci]

oh that was just perfect... r we getting another update? pls??

[sazdaz]

thanks for all he positive feedback.heres a little more.


Although it was 3.30 in the morning he just couldn't sleep,after all that they'd been through they were finally home.home.he smiled to himself.the road had been a rocky one and for a while he doubted this day would ever come.but he didn't dare let Abby see his doubts.although she had appeared strong he knew she was on the edge waiting to break.but finally this afternoon they'd brought Josef home.He glanced at Abby laid beside him fast asleep and wondered at how peaceful she looked.all the pent up tension of the past few weeks were gone.slowly he got up out of bed and walked over to the small crib which was laying beside abby.he smiled when he saw how the baby was laid with fists tightly clenched under his chin,the same as abby was laid.the perfect picture was disturbed when Josef decided he wanted to be fed.before he could let out a bawl Luka Gently lifted him out of the crib and placed him on his shoulder,Josef quietened down but luka knew it wouldn't be for long.
"abby,wake up,our son is hungry again",luka put his little finger in the baby's mouth and he started sucking furiously.
"what already i just fed him",abby sat up rubbing her eyes .as she unbuttened her top luka got into bed beside her and passed the baby over.almost immediatly the baby started suckling noisily.
"what you smiling at".abby cocked her head to the side as she said it.
"my family" luka said "im smiling at my family" and for the first time in years he felt complete.

[Lubyfanatic316]

I LOVE the update!