Crazy for loving you.
Abby.I’m sitting in my car outside the school waiting for Megan but all I can think about is today and Luka picking a fight with Jamie, I mean how can he think I fancy him god I mean I could never move on from him that quickly, I never loved anyone like I loved him “please don’t walk away from me again” so why did I leave him? “I can’t take it again” I don’t think I can take being a part from him but I need to know I can do this “dinner tonight?” I mean I could go what would be the harm “please?” but what if he reads more into it and I upset him, I don’t want to hurt him but then again what if I want him to make a pass at me and he doesn’t will I be hurt.
“Bang…Bang.”
I jump out of my thoughts and turn to the window where Megan is standing waiting for me to let her in the car.
“Are you ok mommy?”
I turn the keys in the car “yeah Sweetie I’m good” I lean a cross and kiss her forehead before driving off.
“What’s for dinner, can we have burger king?”
I’m almost home but I’m also at the turn off point do I go left and home or do I go right to Luka’s.
“Wow mommy where we going?”
I closed my eyes and let my heart pick the way “dinner at Luka’s sweetie were going for dinner” I take a deep breath and put my foot down the quicker I get there the better I mean I don’t want to get cold feet and turn around.
“Oh cool Luka’s does this mean you and him are getting married again?”
One step at a time sweetie “lets just see where tonight goes ok honey but I’m not promising any thing ok?” she nods her head, bless her she has the biggest smile on her face.
“I can’t wait to see Luka do you think he has missed me mommy?”
Luka“I want you to go and now ok just leave!”
I push her to the door as I hear somebody else outside knocking quietly “oh god no please no” I run to the door and see Abby and Megan standing waiting for me to answer “oh god this can’t be happening” I turn back to face Ali.
“What is it sweetie?”
She walks to the door pushing past me she opens it “Oh crap!” I say seeing the look on Abby’s face “Ab’s this isn’t…”She turns on her heels and storms off so I push past Ali and follow her quickly “no ok this isn’t…” I grab her wrist.
“Go away, what were you going to fit her in hoping we would come later?”
She tries to walk but I won’t let her go “she came over I was trying to get rid of her” I look her in the eyes and I can tell she isn’t impressed.
“I came here I trusted you I god why did I bother?”
She screams at me pulling away “because you love me like I love you” I stand in the middle of the stairs as she holds onto the handle at the bottom not sure if she wants to go or stay.
“I was stupid to come.”
I run down the stairs “I love you and I wont give in so go, walk away but it’s just going to make me more determent to get you back” she bites down on her bottom lip.
“Bye Luka.”
I touch the side of Megan’s face “bye sweetie Luka I love you, be a good princess for your mommy ok?” she nods her head and comes towards me for a hug.
“I will and I love you too.”
I stand up and watch them walk back to her car “get out!” I say without turning around I heard her coming down the stairs.
“It’s ok you will come back, men always do I’m a hard habit to break.”