Try to forgive [THE END.]

[rorygilmore]

Cool! I can't wait to read next part.!!!..hope Abby and the baby will be fine.

[hollygirl]

Chapter 9: Out Of Africa


what am I doing? I find myself running toward County. I barely remember getting on a plane. Something is wrong...and I don't even want to think about it. I hate to think about it. I don't want anything to be wrong. I told her I wouldn't be back until next week, but here I am. running through these glass doors.
"Dr. Kovac?!"

"Hi Frank." I say running toward the elevator. It seems to be going so slow..I should have taken the stairs..the doors open and I see Susan talking to a nurse. "Susan! Susan!" she turns her head and looks at me. I am standing in front of her, trying to catch my breath. "Wheres Abby!?"

"What are you doing here? When did you get here?"

"Susan..where is she?"

"Shes down the hall."

"Is everything ok? Is she alright? is the baby ok?"

"She went into preterm labor yesterday."

"Oh my god...I knew something was wrong...I was on the phone with her..and I just knew...thats why I'm here...but are they ok..I mean did she have the baby?"

"No...they put her on Magnesium Sulfate to stop it...but a little while ago a nurse came in and gave her a shot of it...when she was already on the IV...so then she had to much of it, and there were complications from an overdose... respiratory depression and chest pain..she thought she was having a heart attack and started freaking out."

"Yeah... I would have too..."

"she started contracting again..and they started the IV up again..her water didn't break so thats good...but she dialated...almost 2 centimeters..and the side effects are pretty bad for her...nausea, vomitting...headache...muscle weakness..and palpitations.."

"Woah..wait..back it up...heart palpitations..let me get this straight..she can't breath..and she is having heart palpitations..thats just great..."

"She is in room 436..but the magnesium sulfate makes her really tired so shes asleep....don't wake her up."

As I walk into the room, I see her laying on her side, her back is to me. I am standing over her, she has an oxygen mask over her face, shes hooked up to a few IVs, heart monitor, fetal monitor, a monitor for her contractions. The sound of the baby's heart beat fills the room and I can only smile as the sounds pass through my ears...I see her reach for the blanket but it slips through her fingers as she tries to pull it up. She tries again and again, but she can't, she lets her hand rest on her stomach and I pull it up for her, bringing it up to her shoulders. she nestles her head into the pillow and I lean down and kiss her temple. I miss Abby. I love her..why can't I just tell her that?

I sit in a chair and close my eyes. Abby will be so surprised to see me sitting here when she wakes up. I'm not going anywhere. I'm never leaving her again.

[crazylubyfan]

great update! update soon!

[strizzy]

Great update

[luby2534]

Please you have to update !!!!!!!

[hollygirl]

Chapter 10: Us Again


what is that? I am lying here in bed, and someone is snoring really loud..I hope I don't have a room mate...wait..wait a minute..I know that snoring...oh my god..I turn my head to see Luka asleep in a chair..oh my god...what is he doing here?! I want him to wake up..."Luka!" ugh...ah..I'll throw this cup at him...he'll wake up..."ow...what the hell?" I am just staring at him...he is rubbing his forehead where the cup hit him..it couldn't have hurt that much..I don't have any energy. "Sorry." he looks over at me half asleep and smiles. "Hey." I can't believe he is here! "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I had a feeling something was wrong on the phone..so, I ran to the plane..got on it..and then ran here." aw..he is the best.

"When did you get here?"

"Last night...how are you feeling?"

"nauseas...and I'm just....really...scared..and.." I start crying, and I'm not even sure its the hormones..."and...I'm just so happy to see you." he gets up and walks over to me wrapping his arms around me. "Me too. I have missed you so much." I love you...its that simple..I can think it but I just can't say it..why? "I love you Abby." oh my god! did I hear him correctly? yesss..I think I did. "Please forgive me Abby...I'm so sorry...I didn't mean what I said...I don't want us to be over...when I was in Africa, all I could think about was you." He is sitting on the bed next to me, and in the middle of his nice little speech I lean forward and kiss him. It feels so good, his lips to mine, is something I've missed.

"I love you too." oh wow..that feels a lot better too. That is something I have wanted to say for the longest time. He puts his hand to my face and wipes away a tear. "Are we us again?" oh god I hope so. "Do you want to be us again?" please say yes.

"Yes, I do." oh, thank you....I grab his hand and press it to my stomach. As the baby kicks a smile spreads across Luka's face. "She kicks a lot."

"she? its a girl?"

"Yeah."

"Did you pick out a name?" crap...I guess I should have thought of one.."No...I haven't even thought about it."

"Hmm..well, I guess you should think of one.."

"Yeah..um, I don't know..."

"How about Andrea?"

"Andrea Kovac..." I think I like that

"Kovac?"

"Yeah...I want her to have your name if thats ok...I mean, Lockhart isn't my name..and this baby has nothing to do with Richard."

"Yeah, thats fine...so you like Andrea?"

"Yeah..I do...what about a middle name?"

"You pick that one."

"Lauren...Andrea Lauren Kovac."

"Well..now she has a name...do they think the labor will stop?"

"I don't know...I have been on magnesium sulfate for almost 36 hours and I'm still having contractions..."

"How many weeks are you again?"

"About 29, they want me to get to at least 34 weeks...but honestly, I don't think I will."

"I'm sure everything will be fine."

Yeah...you have to say that..there has to be one of us has to be rational...ohhh...this one is a lot stronger than the others have been. I breath through it, holding Luka's hand. Its a long contraction, and 7 minutes later I have another one...as Luka and I talk about Africa and about my pregnancy they keep coming. Dr. Coburn comes in and checks me, I have dilated to 3 centimeters.

"If this stuff isn't going to stop my labor then I don't know if I even want to be on it anymore...it makes me feel terrible."

"Your water hasn't broken yet..Abby, if we take you off it you will dilate very quickly and your water will probably break and you will have a very early baby...the IV drip is slow right now, but we can pump it up or start giving you shots every hour...."

"Ok..."

"Ok..If you start feeling any chest pain or have difficulty breathing let someone know, and we will stop the drip ok..and we are going to start an IV of steroids to help the her lungs develop more."

"Ok...um, I have to use the bathroom...what do you want me to do?"

"Catheter? Bed pan?" ew. I don't think so.

"Um...I think I'll just hold it."

"For how long?"

"Until this baby's born."

"I'll carry you." I almost forgot he was in here. I look over at Luka and his face is very serious.

"You'll carry me?"

"Sure...you have to go..so..you can hold onto the IV, and you can go." is her serious? Does he know how much weight I have gained? "Ok...thanks."

"Anything for you."

[maggie]

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

[rorygilmore]

Awww....love it. He's back!!!!

[strizzy]

Great update!

[lubyfan]

Great updates!

[hollygirl]

Chapter 11: labor


"Oh shit." this isn't good. "What?" Luka asks with concern in his voice. "My water just broke." A contraction hits and I grab his hand, they are so close together. Its too soon. "I'll get Coburn." by the time Luka is back with her, another contraction hits, they are so strong...and they last a long time. It hurts so much...I can't do this. "Well, you are dilated 4 centimeters..your water just broke...theres not much we can do..you have been on magnesium sulfate for 48 hours and it doesn't seem to working..I think we are just going to have to stop, and let you deliver this baby."

"No...no...its too soon.....I haven't...been on the steroids that long..." I start crying and Luka pulls me into his arms....I couldn't be doing this alone..a few hours pass and I am dilated to 7 centimeters now...the contractions are one after the other. I can't do this...I can't...."Ahhhhh!" I scream and then it passes. I throw my head back into the pillow and I feel Luka pressing a cloth to my forehead. I open my eyes and look up at him.

"I can't do this! knock me out!" Luka almost starts laughing..and its not funny, this is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. "Yes you can..." lets see him do this. "No I can't!" I cut him off. "Abby! look at me...you can do this! you are doing great...." I just shake my head no.. "Here, break my hand." I grab his hand and I squeeze it tight until its over. its not soon before another one comes. "I need drugs! get me some drugs...I can't do this anymore.."

"An epidural?"

"No, weed! Yes an epidural!" this is not a time to ask stupid questions.

"Ok..I'll go find Coburn for you."

"Noooooo! no, don't leave me!" he walks back over to me and I push the call button...the stupid nurse that gave me some else's shot of magnesium sulfate walks in. Ew. I hate her. "Can you tell Dr. Coburn to come in here?"

"Sure." She leaves and a few minutes later dr. coburn comes in. "Hey Abby, how are we doing?" how does it look like I'm doing? "I'm going to check you ok...still 7.."

"I need an epidural! please!"

"Ok...I'll call the anesthesiologist, and he'll be here in a little bit."

"Oh..thank you." The contractions just get worse and then the anesthesiologist finally gets here.. I sit up and lean forward.. I feel him stick the needle through my back, and soon it kicks in....ahh..this feels so much better.

this doesn't last long though...a couple more hours pass and I still haven't dilated...I'm stuck at 7...the epidural has wore off, and the contractions are twice as strong as they did before. Dr. Coburn told me to go take a walk, so Luka is helping me up. Just as I stand, and Contraction hits and I lean on to the side of the bed, Luka rubs my back. "Thats it Abby, just breath through it."
I stand back up and we walk around the hallway.

We have been walking around for a while, I can't move, I can feel the baby moving down..it feels like she is just going to pop out right here. Luka grabs a wheel chair and brings me back to my room, Coburn comes in and I scream as the worse contraction ever hits me. "Well, walking helped. You are fully dilated."

[strizzy]

:)Great update

[Andie]

Great update!

[luby2534]

Update soon !!!

[lubyfan]

Great update!