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Post by lubbylover1 on Oct 6, 2007 2:23:25 GMT 10
Great
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Post by *Natalie* on Oct 6, 2007 4:24:31 GMT 10
Great update Hope there's more to come natalie x
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Post by Melimelo on Oct 6, 2007 8:42:43 GMT 10
Hi Guys just thought I would let you know that I have been really ill for the past couple of months (morning sickness) and a haven't felt like updating...I never meant to end the story so now I'm back and feeling better I'll see how ths goes....thanks for your support.
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Post by Melimelo on Oct 6, 2007 9:14:20 GMT 10
Luka stood in the doorway and sucked in one last breath...he could see her standing there with her back to him but he knew she must have heard him and was waiting for him to make the first move.
"Abby....." his voice was weak "Can we talk now...?" his voice was pleading.
Abby turns towards him and he sees her face...her eyes still red from crying and her nose red from the cold air...she simply nods and turns back around. Luka walks towards her and puts an arm around her as if to try and warm her up a little ..she flinches and pulls away a little.
"Luka....I never imagined that I would ever get married again and even now it seems surreal..I mean we talked about....I told you I wasn't ready ...and you waited ..you waited patiently and finally when you propsed ..I was ready.....but this this having a baby thing...I don't think I am ready for that."
There it was...she cast the first stone and it was out there..the words he didn't want to hear ..she didn't say it directly but he knew what she meant..she didn't want to have his baby.
Luka sipped on his coffee for a moment as she exhaled ... some form of relief moved across her face...she had unburdened herself and now it was his turn.
"Abby...I know you are scared and concerned that you couldn't or shouldn't have this baby....but..."
She heard the tone in his voice soften and for a moment she thought he wasn't going to be able to continue and that the emotion had got caught in his throat...she found herself reaching for his hand as he offered it...this time he wasn't on bended knee and there was no ring..this time he was begging with his eyes.
"Abby...we love each other..this baby came from that..whether we planned it or not...we created a life and it is growing inside you.........and at this very moment I couldn't love you anymore if I tried..this baby means everything to me and I know we can do this...please Abby...this is our chance to be a family...a real family."
Abby closes her eyes as she feels the salty tears about to sting again...
"Luka...I'm not sure ...I'm just so scared and I have already spoken with Coburn about my options...."
Luka found himself paralysed with fear...he definately didn't want to hear that.....he clenched his fist and swallowed hard..he couldn't breathe....his heart began pounding and he paced back and forward.
"How can you make a decision without me...this involves both of us ..we're in this together"
His voice sounded angry ...but she didn't blame him and she knew how much this baby would mean to him...but she was so unsure and Coburn was just trying to be supportive by giving her all her options.
Abby reaches up and puts her hand on his shoulder..it bounces lightly and then rests comfortably...an awkard silence unsues and then his hand gently lands on hers...she bites her lip and then speaks.
"It's my body Luka ..and it is mostly my decision...but I.... I haven't made a decision yet..."
Luka's arm finds it's way back around her and she allows him to pull her in close..he kisses the top of her head and stares out into the night sky.....he will convince her yet.
To be continued.....
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jehkovac
Marquise of Luby
Jessica Kovac Andrade de Oliveira
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Post by jehkovac on Oct 6, 2007 9:26:46 GMT 10
I'm glad you are feeling better!!!!! I hope Luka can convince her!!!! Great update!!!! Do it again soon
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Post by lubylover on Oct 6, 2007 9:27:15 GMT 10
Aww yes Luka, convince her lol
Great update can't wait for more
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cloudy
Duchess of Luby
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Post by cloudy on Oct 6, 2007 12:20:23 GMT 10
"please Abby...this is our chance to be a family...a real family." Thanks so much for updating again. I really love this fic. Sorry you've been feeling bad.. but now I'm glad you're feeling better. I feel a little awkward with this statement. It makes it sound like two ppl are only a real family if they have a child. Maybe that's not what you meant, but still, it's kinda insulting? weird? something like that, I don't know how to describe it..
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Post by Melimelo on Oct 6, 2007 15:39:52 GMT 10
I know what you mean...but it was just Luka's way of reminding her she didn't have a great family life growing up and rather than run from it or be scared of it..she could have her own family and actually enjoy it and be happy... if she allows herself to be ......he has faith in her being a mother..even if she doesn't . Also it is obvious that Luka would love nothing more than to be a father and husband again. (Although the getting married thing is on hold at the moment) Hope that helps
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cloudy
Duchess of Luby
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Post by cloudy on Oct 6, 2007 23:29:34 GMT 10
Yea that explains some. Well at least they are engaged !
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Post by lubbylover1 on Oct 6, 2007 23:53:25 GMT 10
Great update
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Post by britneyluby on Oct 7, 2007 0:37:25 GMT 10
Love it!!! Make her keep the baby... UPDATE!!!
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Post by *Natalie* on Oct 7, 2007 7:24:32 GMT 10
Great update natalie xx
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Post by Melimelo on Oct 8, 2007 12:46:15 GMT 10
It was almost 10 past the hour and Abby checked her watch again...Luka pretended not to notice her fidgeting as he read a magazine left on the seat next to him. Coburn's office was pretty standard for a consult room except for the butterfly tile mosaic on the ceiling above the bed.....Abby stared that bed up and down and felt herself tense up at the thought of being asked to lie on it for an examination. The nurse had shown Abby and Luka through ten minutes ago and apologized that Dr Coburn was running behind and would be in shortly......it felt like time was ticking away to Luka and he hoped after meeting with Coburn that he might get one more chance to change Abby's mind about keeping the baby.
"Sorry I'm late Abby I got held up in traffic...."
Dr Coburn breezed throught the door and gave Abby a friendly smile and a bewildered look towards Luka..Abby had failed to mention who had gotten her pregnant ..but Coburn softened her stare a little when Luka stood up and greeted her.
"Janet....nice to see you again...." Luka graciously puts his hand to shake hers and she casts Abby an approving look as she sits down.
"Okay you two ...have you made a decision yet...?"
She was straight to the point and Abby appreciated it ..she didn't want to have to make small talk just because they collegues and Luka pressuring her to letting him come was already making her feel uncomfortable.
"Janet ....when I spoke with you the other day you told me to think about this carefully and you would be able to help me ..whatever my decision is...."
Dr Coburn nods politely and waits for Abby to speak.
"Yes Abby....go on..."
Luka takes Abby's hand in his and gently squeezes it ...she suddenly stumbles on what she is about to say..
"I...ah ...I don't think..um..."
Abby pulls her hand from Luka's and places it on her forehead as if in terrible despair...she feels nauseas all of a sudden and her breathing sounds laboured....Luka turns sideways towards her.
"Abby are okay.....?"
Dr Coburn knowingly gets up and starts pouring cold water into a cup..she walks back over and hands it to Abby.
"You know the hardest decision isn't always whether you choose to keep it...it's sometimes choosing not to keep it.."
Luka felt like a knife was suddenly plunged into his heart...he rises to feet and stares down to Coburn and looks directly itno her eyes...she sees his nostrils flare and tries to anticipate his next move...
'Luka...please sit down.....you need to keep your emotions in check for Abby's sake...we all need to be calm."
Luka shakes his head slowly and then drops to his knees and puts his head in Abby's lap..he begins to sob uncontrollably and the stance of the angry man is replaced by the spirit of a broken man...Abby strokes his head.
"Luka...please don't do this.....don't make me choose"
Dr Coburn sits back stunned as Luka slowly lifts his head and his tears leave a stain on Abby's trousers.
"Is that what it has come to Abby.....you think I would make you choose between having a baby with me or getting rid of it and losing me.......how could you think that..?"
Dr Coburn decides to interject and leans forward on her chair.
"Abby you are 37 years old ...you are in good health and you have a partner who loves you....it seems like it's almost an ideal situation and time to start a family....you clock won't tick forever you know ..so why if you don't mind me asking...are you considering termination...?"
Luka takes his seat next to Abby again and avoids eye contact..he wants to give her plenty of space to answer this question......Abby bites her lip and wonders what to say...whatever she says ..he wasn't going to like.
"I have never seen myself as the maternal type....I have never had the urge to raise a family and with my family history of mental ilness ..maybe I shouldn't...but I see how much Luka wants this and it tortures me to think that I am already pregnant and I don't choose to be and things usually happen for a reason...but I think this was a mistake an accident.... a slip up ..whatever you want to call it...this pregnancy is unwanted and I want to terminate it....." Coburn suddenly looks to Luka and tilts her head to the side.
"Can you accept Abby's decision Luka....can you support her through this......I need to know...and so does she..."
Luka's lips part as he prepares to speak...he surveys Abby's face from the side and watches as a tear rolls down her cheek...he didn't want her to go through this alone...but he didn't want to be part of terminating the life he helped create..he couldn't lose another child and if he lets go now...there might never be another chance again.
"Abby.....I don't want you to terminate....and I will get a lawyer if I have to ...but I want this baby....maybe one of does have to choose after all..."
Coburn closes her eyes for a second...this was going to get ugly...
To be continued....
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Post by maggie on Oct 8, 2007 13:25:50 GMT 10
Damn. If Coburn ever said that to me (questioning my choice, I mean) I'd probably slap her and then report her to the medical board. Not exactly her place, is it? And as for Luka and his little lawyer...gah. Another slap for him. Bad Luka. Not that he'd ever win, but still, bad Luka, no cookie for him.
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Post by Melimelo on Oct 8, 2007 13:49:58 GMT 10
Abby get's pregnant in almost every fic and I felt like going in a different direction this time..sorry Maggie (Cookie nazi) --Yes..Abby does feel a little bit ganged up on and this could have repercussions.
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