Post by sazdaz on Mar 21, 2006 22:23:05 GMT 10
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Although she felt sick to her stomach she knew she had to go up there,all the times she worked in the NICU ,she never once imagined she would be in this position.she didn't go up there at all yesterday afraid of what would await her.looking around at all those somber faces, all those parents just waiting to hear a bit of good news that day.she couldn't do it,the fact that she knew almost everyone in that dept didn't help,the fact that she knew what every monitor was for what every line going in his tiny body was terrified her even more .she reached for a tissue out of her pocket and wiped the tears that were trickling down her pale cheeks.a sudden flash back to that day 10 days ago when everything went wrong made her try to keep her tears in check.
"how are you abby",she felt a hand upon her shoulder and spun around.
"fine i guess kerry",after all those years of working together,all those times she'd laughed when people refered to kerry weaver being a ice queen bitch or whatever ,when it came down to it kerry was here for her,sure neela had been up to see them both but abby knew how neela felt about NICU but kerry came on a daily basis and seemed genuinly concerned.
"so how's the little man doing today"
"the same i guess".abby shrugged her shoulders and looked towards the NICU door"i can't do it today kerry,
i can't face another day of not knowing what's going to happen,another day of Luka telling me everythings gonna be ok,when i know there is a chance it wont be.
"where is luka",kerry looked around but couldn't see him.
"he went home,Dr Coburn sent him home i think he was getting on the staff's nerves,you know with all the questions",a small smile swept quickly across her face as she remembered Luka a couple of days ago stood vigilantly over the staff whenever they went near their son"it's ok to be scared abby,even terrified you are not a doctor here you are a mother of a sick child,but he's a fighter he's already shown us that ,now are you going to come in quietly or am i going to have to drag you in.
abby let out a small laugh and swung open the doors.as they walked through the doors dr coburn came towards them"ah ,here you are abby,we just rang the ward we wanted you to come down",abby tried to look behind her toward the incubator where her son was but couldn't see past"why?what's wrong?what's happened?"panic was starting to creep in.Kerry put a reasuring hand on her arm
dont worry,everything's fine abby,we just thought you'd like to give tha little boy of yours a cuddle this morning".
"you mean that,i mean is he strong enough,i dont want to if it comprimises him in any way",although she'd said those words abby's hands were itching to get hold of him.yes she'd stroked his small downy head and held on to his tiny hands but never dared to think about holding him.
"abby you know as well as do that babies especially NICU ones need to be held.do you want to hold your son?"she smiled knowing what the reaction would be.
"of course i do,can someone ring Luka for me,im sure he wouldn't mind if we woke him"for the first time in god knows how long she was smiling.as dr coburn moved aside abby saw that a nurse was just fiishing off chanding his nappy.the nurse looked and smiled."if you want to sit down in that armchair next to the cot i'll pass him over to you abby",
"i think i'll leave you to it abby",kerry suddenly felt like she shouldn't be there ,as if she would be intruding upon this perfect moment.
"please stay kerry,i want you to stay,that's if you don't mind"
"of course i dont mind",tears sprung into her eyes as she remembered when sandy had first held Henry in the
NICU.
The nurse carefully walked over to where abby was now settled,"actually abby if you want to we could pop him down your nightdress,a little skin to skin often settles them better",the baby started squiming in her hands.
"ok,i'll try that", slowly the nurse slid the little baby down the front of abby "there you go .i'll leave you alone for a while,buzz if you want us for anything"
"how does that feel abby,pretty amazing i bet"kerry stroked the back of abby's head.
but abby didn't hear her she was so absorbed in taking in every little detail of her son.and for the first time she thought about the future.
hope you like it.
Although she felt sick to her stomach she knew she had to go up there,all the times she worked in the NICU ,she never once imagined she would be in this position.she didn't go up there at all yesterday afraid of what would await her.looking around at all those somber faces, all those parents just waiting to hear a bit of good news that day.she couldn't do it,the fact that she knew almost everyone in that dept didn't help,the fact that she knew what every monitor was for what every line going in his tiny body was terrified her even more .she reached for a tissue out of her pocket and wiped the tears that were trickling down her pale cheeks.a sudden flash back to that day 10 days ago when everything went wrong made her try to keep her tears in check.
"how are you abby",she felt a hand upon her shoulder and spun around.
"fine i guess kerry",after all those years of working together,all those times she'd laughed when people refered to kerry weaver being a ice queen bitch or whatever ,when it came down to it kerry was here for her,sure neela had been up to see them both but abby knew how neela felt about NICU but kerry came on a daily basis and seemed genuinly concerned.
"so how's the little man doing today"
"the same i guess".abby shrugged her shoulders and looked towards the NICU door"i can't do it today kerry,
i can't face another day of not knowing what's going to happen,another day of Luka telling me everythings gonna be ok,when i know there is a chance it wont be.
"where is luka",kerry looked around but couldn't see him.
"he went home,Dr Coburn sent him home i think he was getting on the staff's nerves,you know with all the questions",a small smile swept quickly across her face as she remembered Luka a couple of days ago stood vigilantly over the staff whenever they went near their son"it's ok to be scared abby,even terrified you are not a doctor here you are a mother of a sick child,but he's a fighter he's already shown us that ,now are you going to come in quietly or am i going to have to drag you in.
abby let out a small laugh and swung open the doors.as they walked through the doors dr coburn came towards them"ah ,here you are abby,we just rang the ward we wanted you to come down",abby tried to look behind her toward the incubator where her son was but couldn't see past"why?what's wrong?what's happened?"panic was starting to creep in.Kerry put a reasuring hand on her arm
dont worry,everything's fine abby,we just thought you'd like to give tha little boy of yours a cuddle this morning".
"you mean that,i mean is he strong enough,i dont want to if it comprimises him in any way",although she'd said those words abby's hands were itching to get hold of him.yes she'd stroked his small downy head and held on to his tiny hands but never dared to think about holding him.
"abby you know as well as do that babies especially NICU ones need to be held.do you want to hold your son?"she smiled knowing what the reaction would be.
"of course i do,can someone ring Luka for me,im sure he wouldn't mind if we woke him"for the first time in god knows how long she was smiling.as dr coburn moved aside abby saw that a nurse was just fiishing off chanding his nappy.the nurse looked and smiled."if you want to sit down in that armchair next to the cot i'll pass him over to you abby",
"i think i'll leave you to it abby",kerry suddenly felt like she shouldn't be there ,as if she would be intruding upon this perfect moment.
"please stay kerry,i want you to stay,that's if you don't mind"
"of course i dont mind",tears sprung into her eyes as she remembered when sandy had first held Henry in the
NICU.
The nurse carefully walked over to where abby was now settled,"actually abby if you want to we could pop him down your nightdress,a little skin to skin often settles them better",the baby started squiming in her hands.
"ok,i'll try that", slowly the nurse slid the little baby down the front of abby "there you go .i'll leave you alone for a while,buzz if you want us for anything"
"how does that feel abby,pretty amazing i bet"kerry stroked the back of abby's head.
but abby didn't hear her she was so absorbed in taking in every little detail of her son.and for the first time she thought about the future.
hope you like it.