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Post by debsxx2006xx on Jun 26, 2006 5:57:39 GMT 10
Life is worth living when you have a life to live for. It’s been 4 months of waiting, 4 months of hoping and wishing, 4 months of looking through that damn glass box just to see my baby. I feel like I have been sitting beside him forever but these last four months have been more then worth it and now we get to take him home for the first time and I can’t wait. As Luka is taking him around the room showing him off to everyone I think back at what we went through not just almost losing Joe but losing everything. More then once I came close to losing Luka I didn’t think we could make it I remember two weeks after it all happened I was recovering from my operation I was sitting out side with Neela telling her how I was ready to give it all up… “He took it away from me Neela I asked him I begged him not to let Coburn do the hysterectomy, he didn’t give a damn what I was feeling!” I think I hit a saw spot her eyes dart towards me as she starts to blow. “Are you kidding me damn it Abby he loves you for god sakes he did it for you! Do you think it was easy, he was watching you die Abby he couldn’t lose you he had to pick for you he never wanted to take that choice away from you but he had to!” I think I’m going to cry “If I can’t have more children why would he want to stay Neela I can’t help but feel like all this these last moths have been because I was pregnant I can’t get it out my head. “I love you for you Abby not for what you can give me” Oh crap he’s standing behind me I don’t dare turn around Neela places her hand on my shoulder as she walks away leaving me her last thought. “Trust him Abby.” As she walks away I turn around to face my demands “I em” he walks to me placing a finger over my lips running his hand down my face resting it on my shoulder he looks deep into my soul. “I couldn’t lose you and I would do the same thing again tomorrow even knowing how you feel. All I want is you all I have ever wanted was you Joe is just a bounce a damn good one but he’s not why were together.” “I’m sorry I just I’m scared Luka I don’t want to lose everything before I’ve even felt it” he pulls me into his arms shielding me from myself. “We have everything and you will feel it I can’t promise you that he’s going to be ok because I wont break your heart but if we believe in him I know he can pull through hell he looks like you so lets hope he got your stubbornness also” He always knows what to say, “I love you,” I plead with his eyes to let me in. “I love you too.” “Luka you know when you asked me to marry you” he tries to stop me but its me who stops him “I didn’t say no to hurt you I just I love what we have and were doing it so right this time I don’t want it to go wrong I just want to be a family” I wipe his tears away. “I can settle for love marriage I can wait for as long as we have each other nothing can go wrong we will travel the rocky road together I promise .” “Are you ready to go home mommy.”My two favourite men in the world stand waiting for me I take Joe from Lukas arms and nod “I’ve never been more ready.”As we leave the hospital to start are happy family Luka places his hand on the small of my back guiding me along the road we promised to travel together.
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Post by *Natalie* on Jun 26, 2006 6:04:29 GMT 10
That was great hope you do more
natalie xx
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Post by strizzy on Jun 26, 2006 6:16:49 GMT 10
Great start Update soon!
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Post by anna982 on Jun 26, 2006 6:48:50 GMT 10
[glow=red,2,300]Update again soon.[/glow]
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Post by debsxx2006xx on Jun 26, 2006 7:35:56 GMT 10
Life is worth living when you have a life to live for. I’m laying in bed my own bed for the first time in what feel like forever its Joes first night home, Abby and I put him down to sleep 3 hours ago although Abby Is asleep I can’t seem to let myself drift off I’m laying here with her in my arms just in case he needs me I want to be awake to hear him. As I wake up I try to reach for Abby as always but this time my hands fill with air I look up and over at the clock 6:13 where could she be? As I get out of bed I see the door to Joes nursery is open as I go in I find an empty crib. Knowing there is only one other place the pair of them could be at this time of the morning I make my way down the stairs I hear Abby talking she’s sitting at the breakfast bar with Joe in her arms. “I can’t remember feeling like this Joe even when I held you before I never felt like this I guess that’s because I never held you for long everyone thought you would tire me out but you could never do that from the moment you were born all you have done is give me strength.”They’re so cute together I don’t want to spoil the moment but I’m feeling left out “cough couch” she turns around and smiles. “Say morning to daddy Joe.”I walk over to the bar pulling the other seat out rubbing Joes head I lean over to kiss Abby “Morning beautiful” Joe sticks his arm out from his blanket Abby has around him “morning baby” I kiss his cheek over and over. “He was hungry and I didn’t want to wake you.”I stop kissing Joe “Its fine I just wondered were you were its early” I take him from her arms as the Microwave pings. “I don’t think your son understand the time just yet honey.” Ha I pull the blanket around him a little more as Abby tests the milk on her arm as I get ready to hand him back she shakes her head and passes me the bottle. “Do you mind doing it? I really need to take a shower.” I walk over to the couch sitting Joe in my lap I turn the TV on as he takes his bottle so this is a normal family morning “were not doing bad at all are we little guy” he’s not listening he gets that from Abby too. Awhile later Joe is asleep and the shower is still running so I go see what’s taking her so long “hey you almost done princess?” I stick my head in the bathroom door so see Abby stand naked looking at herself in the mirror “What are you doing?” she tries to cover herself up at the sound of my voice. “Nothing I just erm I am I sexy? I mean I know you say I’m beautiful and give me complements all the time but am I sexy?”I make my way over to her sliding the towel she’s holding to hide herself I tug it gently pulling it to the floor, I run my hand off her should down her right breast to her stomach letting my hand rest a little long on her scar I slid it around her hip pulling her to me. “Sexy? Abby you are hot I can’t believe your asking me of all people you ask me this?” she’s biting her lip she always does when I pay her a complement “for seven years I haven’t been able to take my eyes off you! Your beautiful you always have been and always will be” I lean in to kiss her are lips seconds away I feel warm air between us then…. crying breaks us apart “I’ll go” she smiles picking the towel up following me to find out what’s upset our baby at this priceless moment. If this is family life I guess we take the good and bad it's what makes it more fun i mean it's meant to last 18 years right?.
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Post by strizzy on Jun 26, 2006 7:41:45 GMT 10
Great Update!
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Post by luby2534 on Jun 26, 2006 7:56:04 GMT 10
Excellent start. Although it comes as no suprise !!
Your really good at this !!!!
More please !!
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Post by lubyfan on Jun 26, 2006 9:00:03 GMT 10
Great start I love it!
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Post by Lubyfanatic316 on Jun 26, 2006 9:16:42 GMT 10
Can't wait for the update!
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Post by <3 LubyII <3 on Jun 26, 2006 9:33:14 GMT 10
Great start. Update soon!
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Post by jaana on Jun 26, 2006 16:33:58 GMT 10
Love it.
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Post by cheryl on Jun 26, 2006 17:54:05 GMT 10
Love it dying for the update.
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Post by *Natalie* on Jun 27, 2006 5:47:01 GMT 10
Another great update!! Hope you do more soon
natalie x
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Post by debsxx2006xx on Jun 27, 2006 6:30:45 GMT 10
Life is worth living when you have a life to live for. Saturday morning the sun is shining and I’m getting Joe ready I’m putting these little cute shorts on him. Luka and I are taking him to the park its our first Saturday off together for months and I can’t wait “Picnic is ready” I inform them although Luka is talking to Joe “Hey baby what does mommy put in this bag I can’t think of anything else and its only half full we have to sit on it when she packs it.” “Baby dressed?” I smile at the excitement were so badly hiding I mean this is meant to be Joes day not ours its his first day at the park as I’m half way to the door the basket in my arms I hear Luka call. “Get a jacket it might get cold the weather guy said it could get chilly later.”I put the basket down opening the closet pulling out a thin jacket just to keep him sweet “Yes boss” he blows me a kiss as I slip my jacket on then starts to walk to the door jumping over the basket he has put the baby in his car seat so I pick the basket up dropping the latch on the door as I leave. As I get outside I’m greeted with the view of Lukas ass as he tries to strap Joe in. “Do you want him behind me or you baby?”Ha answering him would be a lot easier if he stop waving his cute ass at me “either honey I don’t mind I’m going to jump in the back with him anyway.“Why? he is fine on his own!”He has a point I mean he is but I don’t like to be far away from him for long and a chair between us is way to far. Were in the car finally are mission the park are destination five minutes down the road Joe cries every time Luka starts the car “Shh baby mommy is right here” I stroke his head trying to sooth him I undo my seatbelt turning the radio on “ok Luka try again I think I got it” as Luka starts the car Joe cries then stops as Eminem (shake that ass) starts to fill the car this kid having my legs he’s way to young to like this song but he does he’s shaking his elephant in the air to the beat. I can hear Luka singing along with the words I learn something new everyday, who would have thought my Croatian sensation liking Eminem. It’s the third station I have found with this song playing and the song finishes just in time we have parked up it’s a damn good job the park is only a ten minute drive. The sun is still shining Luka is laying the blanket out and I’m spinning around with Joe in my arms “That’s a tree baby and that’s bird can you see the bird baby?” I love him so much and each day he takes my breath away a little more. “Lunch is ready baby”I stop spinning to look at what he has done, to my surprise “see honey daddy can make us a meal that doesn’t have to look like it came from the over side of the worlds and it smells better” Luka hits me with Joes teddy as I lay him between us on the blanket as I look around I see everything I could of dreamt of in my fairytales as a young girl and as I look down at my family its not the same faces I dreamt of its better because within all my wildest dreams I could never of dreamt up something so special and rich my life has become.
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Post by anna982 on Jun 27, 2006 6:41:45 GMT 10
[glow=red,2,300]Update again soon. I love it.[/glow]
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