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Post by Melimelo on Mar 15, 2008 13:34:49 GMT 10
chapter 4
Luka's responses had been typical and he avoided telling her how he really felt which was ironic as he main excuse for doing what he did tonight was simply that he felt empty and the rush of driving fast and picking up a hooker was just way of trying to feel something...something other than empty. Abby puts her hand on his shoulder and waits for him to turn his head towards her.....she needed him to know that she was there for him and that he did have a friend in her.
"Luka...I know things didn't work out between us and that I'm with Carter now....but it doesn't mean I don't care and that I am going to let you go off the rails like this.... because I'm not....you were there plenty of time for me and helped me ..especially with Maggie.....so let me be there for you now"
Luka looks into her eyes and sees the big brown pools staring back at him and he almost feels compelled to open up to her and that her comforting him was almost like having her back...but the happy little moment was interrupted when her phone starts ringing...it was Carter and her face lit up when she heard his voice and instantly the lights went out for Luka and he was back in the dark place.
'Hey Carter.......no we're fine...just talking that's all...."
Her voice was calm and she almost sounded like she was trying to minimize the situation...maybe she wanted carter to feel secure...afterall she was back in her ex's apartment and trying to help him through some emotional stuff and carter was probably work trying not to think about it.
Luka couldn't watch ..he needed to leave he didn't need to listen to their small talk.
"I'm going for a shower..."
Abby watches silently as he heads upstairs...Carter's voice is in her ear but she is barely listening...her mind wanders and she starts to wonder if Luka might be planning something and maybe she should check for sharp intruments in his bathroom.
'Abby...Abby...are you still there....?"
It was carter's voice....she had lost concentration.
"Yeah...I'm here...but I need to check on Luka....he's gone upstairs...."
To be continued.......
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Post by britneyluby on Mar 16, 2008 4:59:40 GMT 10
OMG, I love, love, LOVEEEE!!! IT!!!! Please UPDATE soon!!!!!!!
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Post by lubylover on Mar 16, 2008 10:22:44 GMT 10
Aww I liked it.... she still loves him...
Update soon!
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Post by Melimelo on Mar 23, 2008 11:50:32 GMT 10
Chapter 5
Abby ascended the stairs slowly and precisely..she had climbed them many times before but counted each step as if this was the first time. Carter had berated her for blowing him off on the phone...he knew she needed to be there for Luka but he worried she was getting too close so she had promised to just quickly check on Luka and then return downstairs.
"Okay John...I get it..I won't get over involved and I will be careful not to confuse or blur any lines..although I think you need to give me some credit..I do have some experience with spiraling out of control and falling off the wagon so I think I know what he needs..."
The words came out so fast that she didn't even blink and when Carter hung up on her she just shook her head and threw the phone down....Luka needed her help and Carter will just have to get over himself she thought.
Sixteen steps...she counted them in her head and then hesitated before quietly proceeding to open his bedroom door..she put her ear to it and listened for the sound of running water and then slowly turned the knob....it made a small creaky sound and she hoped it didn't disturb him.
"Luka...are you okay..?"
There is no response and with one foot in the door she gingerly put the rest of herself in the room and then she heard the faint sound of him singing in the shower..some Croatian tune she wasn't familiar with...but he was singing and that was a good sign. Abby stood in the room and fiddled with her hands..she figured she had two choices..one - she could knock on the shower door and alert him to the fact she was checking on him and suffer huge embarrassment if he yells at her to get out or two she could quietly backtrack her steps and return to the kitchen without him knowing she was even up here. The shower suddenly turns off and the singing stops and in her panic she tries to leave without disturbing him but only manages to bump into his dresser and knock some papers to the floor.
'Shit....dammit...'
Abby is on all fours rummaging around collecting his papers when he opens the door and stands there staring at her on the floor...her eyes scan him up and down and she almost freezes at the sight of him nearly naked and wearing only a blue towel.
"Abby...what are you doing....?"
Abby quickly diverts her eyes to the floor and reaches out for the last piece of paper.
"Um....I are came to see if you were okay..and I um accidentally bumped into your dresser and dropped these papers...sorry I didn't mean to disturb you.."
Luka nods slowly and nervously adjusts his towel as the water beads still drip from his hair to his chest and he notices Abby is now looking at the papers and he sees her frown slightly as she gets to her feet....she had seen them and now she was going to question him about them.
"Luka..what's this....what have you done..this is an itinerary for a trip to Africa and......"
He watches as she reads through the documents and tries to make sense of them...he steps forward and takes them from her hand and her eyes widen.
"Abby... a while ago I signed up for Doctors without Borders and well now it is all finalized and I leave next week...I am going to The Congo."
Abby's mouth drops open in disbelief and she struggles to form any words.
"You're going to The Congo....are you serious..?"
To be continued....
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Post by britneyluby on Mar 23, 2008 23:42:22 GMT 10
LOVE IT!!!! You need to update ASAP
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Denny
Junior Luby
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Post by Denny on Mar 24, 2008 9:04:50 GMT 10
update soon
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Post by lubylover on Mar 24, 2008 11:34:10 GMT 10
Aww that was good....but sad, you can tell she still likes him...
Great Job, can't wait for more
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Post by zelda on Mar 25, 2008 5:04:37 GMT 10
I have always loved season 9.... Dark, sad, damaged LUKA who told the ER shrink how he had screwed up everything he believed in. Your description of his despair and " emptiness" is heartbreaking. Shame, self-destruction...for LUKA there is no possibility of redemption, even though ABBY is here for him. The only solution is FLEEING to the CONGO! Very, very emotional lines, MEL. I've loved every line of your story. To be continued.
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Post by Melimelo on Mar 27, 2008 10:20:36 GMT 10
Chapter 6
Abby gave a sarcastic laugh as Luka tried to explain his reasons for going to The Congo.
"No don't bother...I don't need to know...you have this desire to go to help people in other countries but you won't stay here and help yourself....sounds perfect for you you get kudos for helping others and you get to avoid facing your own demons by getting involved in other peoples woes."
Luka decided to get dressed before following her downstairs and trying to talk to her....he knew she was right but he didn't feel like arguing the point either.
Abby pretended to tidy up and even though it was a delaying tactic...she needed to look busy when he came down the stairs and she needed him to be the one to speak first...he never really shared his feelings when they were together..well not the really deep ones..only the ones on the surface and even then she barely scratched those...he had built such a wall around his emotions and she needed a jackhammer to penetrate.
"Abby......I know you are mad at me...but we can talk ..I don't want to go away knowing you are angry with me..."
Abby rolls her eyes back in her head and prepares to unleash a tirade of abuse at him...but he touches her arm with his and suddenly the angry tirade seemed inappropriate and she sighs.
"Okay....tell me Luka..what are you running away from this time....I mean...that is what you are doing isn't it...?"
Luka smiles briefly at her....she had him...but still he couldn't quite open up and tell her everything...tell her he still loved her.
"Abby.....I need to go somewhere where I will feel useful...where I can make a difference ..without having to think about anything...without having to think about what I have or what I don't have.....I just need a break from everything and everyone.."
The last words echoed in her mind....was she included in that reference..seeing her everyday at work and with Carter..was it too much for him...could her ego even allow her to think like that..maybe he did need to escape for a while but why does he have to go to such an extreme place she wondered.
'Luka....you don't seem happy and if you think this trip will help you then......I guess that is a good thing....just promise me you will be careful..they have civil unrest over there and it could be dangerous ..."
Luka turns toward her and lets out a deep breath...he had her blessing and that was something...he opens his arms and slowly she leans into him and he pulls her in tight and wraps his arms around her and for a brief moment it felt good.
"So.... when will you leave...?"
Abby pulls back as she waits for Luka's reply and just at that moment there is a knock at the door......she swallows hard hoping he opens the door to find someone else there but in her heart she guesses it is Carter and suddenly she felt conflicted.
To be continued............................
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kcabrasil
Countess of Luby
Could I be more mess up?
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Post by kcabrasil on Mar 27, 2008 11:50:16 GMT 10
um... confusion, jealous, I'm hooked!
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Post by applejak on Mar 27, 2008 13:14:25 GMT 10
very intriguing. love the update, please continue asap
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Post by britneyluby on Mar 27, 2008 15:14:15 GMT 10
Love it!!! I want an update
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Post by lubylover on Mar 28, 2008 1:13:29 GMT 10
Oh wow... what's wrong Carter? Don't trust her? lol
I love it, I can't wait for the update
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Post by Melimelo on Mar 29, 2008 10:18:31 GMT 10
Chapter 7
Abby sat in the ambulance bay and drew back on her cigarette..it had been a while since she had snuck out for one of these and she wanted to enjoy it. The smoke billowed out in front of her and the slight chill in the air made her breath add to the illusion.....it was just a cigarette after all and trying to imagine it as cloud in the just silly. Luka had been gone a couple of weeks and Carter had been on her case ever since...she felt smothered and needed to let her mind escape for a minute and if she was honest with herself what she really wanted to do was wonder what Luka was doing and how he was feeling..and once again she watched the smoke form little clouds in front of her........
Meanwhile in The Congo.........
To be continued
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Post by lubylover on Mar 29, 2008 10:37:48 GMT 10
wow, that one was very short....short but good.
Update soon
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