...Live or Survive...

[Luby14]

Luka was driving. Abby was sitting on the seat next to him. The radio was on. a song of The Cardigans was broadcasting.

Love me love me
Say that you love me
Fool me fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me love me

Abby yamned. Luka turned the head to look at her.
"Are you okay? You seem to be tired this week."
"Luka..."
"What?"
"I'm not pregnant."
"I didn't talk about it! I think only that you seem to be tired."
Abby nodded.
"Sorry..."
"About?" Luka looked at her again.
"I dunno..."
Luka grinned.
"What will we do tonight?"
"Have you some ideas?"
"Maybe..."
"C'mon, Luka... Say what you think."
"Home, dinner, candles..."
"Bed..."
Luka glance to her, surprised.
"Why not..." He shrugged.
"Only why not? Okay... and if I wanted to go to ER's party?"
He faked to think.
"huh...Okay, if you want."
Abby smiled.
"It's a joke."
"If you want to go there, we'll."
"I don't. I want your romantic dinner..."
He parked the car. They went out of the car. Luka took Abby's hand and they walked to the hospital. Luka stopped and took Abby by the waist. He kissed her. Their tongues met each other. After some seconds, their lips parted. Abby looked at his eyes. Luka looked at his watch.
"Oh crap! I must do some shopping. I'll see you later."
"Ok..." He went away. Abby turned and entered in the building.

[dosia]

update

[Luby14]

Abby entered in the rest room. Neela was reading a letter. When she noticed her friend was come in she closed it and looked at her.
"Hey." Abby said.
"Hey."
"How are you?"
"Fine, you?"
"Good. What time did you begin?"
"7am, I couldn't sleep."
Abby sat next to her and sighed. They looked in the same direction.
"I must go to work."
"I'll arrive in 5 minutes." Abby added.
"See you."
Neela went out. Abby's eyes were attracted by the Valentine's card on the table. She took it and looked it. There were two angels who tried to take the hands to each other. Abby opened it and read. "So far, but so near." She continued. "Sorry... I feel me so guilty... I can't and you can't. Love. R."
Abby wondered which man had his name which began by R... Ryan? Ryan Mc Mahon, the new?? Abby shook the head. It was impossible. Neela and he hated each other. Ray? Oh God! Abby jumped. Ray and Neela? Suddenly, Ray entered in the room.
"Hi."
"Hi."
Abby smiled inside her. She put the card, Ray noticed her gesture. He didn't say anything. He opened his closet. Abby stood up. Chuny arrived with a bouquet of red roses and a card.
Ray smiled, suprised.
"Chuny... I don't know that..."
"In your dreams Ray. It's for Abby."
"Me?"
Abby moved to the bouquet and smelt them. She took the card. Chuny continued, dreaming.
"What chance you have, to have a future husband...so nice... Nobody offers me a bouquet even not a card..."
Ray moved to her and put a kiss on her cheek.
"Happy Valentine's day."
She smiled and hit him gently on his arm.
"Stop it. (She turned to Abby.) So, who is it? Luka?"
"I think...there isn't signature just a text : Love."
Abby smiled.

Abby arrived behind Luka. She surrounded him with her arms and whispered.
"Thank you."
He turned taking her by the waist.
"What about?"
"Red roses...the card... You prepare me for our romantic dinner..."
Luka grinned, thinking.
"Abby...baby... I didn't send you roses... and any card..."
"You're liar..."
"I swear you. This morning I went to do shopping, yes for your present but any roses, any card..."
Abby bit a lip.
"You didn't send me nothing..."
"Nothing... but if you want... I can, now, at once."
"No... I think it was you... It would be normal..."
"I'm sorry to disappoint you."
"Never mind."
She shrugged.
"It doesn't matter."
"Yes, of course, it's important, but I thought that your present would be enough..."
She smiled.
"Luka... your present is enough. I wonder who is this person who sent me them... Yes, of course I was disappointed it's not you, but it doesn't matter... is it big your present?"
"Expensive..."
Abby grinned and glanced provocatively to him.
"Good... I'm sure I will love it."
"Sure too. Now, go to work."
"Right, chief."
He kissed her.
"Keep your 'chief' for tonight."
"Luka..." He smiled and went away.

Abby must waited Luka next to the car. It was already 8pm. It was dark. Abby saw a silhouette next to the car. She smiled and said, advancing.
"I'm ready, you?"
The man turned. Abby jumped.
"Ryan? What are you doing here?"
"I was waiting for you..."
"Why? Did I forget some signatures on some files?"
"No...did you like roses?"
Abby freezed. She made a step behind.
"It was you..."
"Abby..."
He began to move toward her.
"I believe that I'm..."
"Shut up..."
"You're so... wonderful."
"Stop. Luka'll arrive, if he knows what you're saying..."
"What? Does he hit me?"
"Probably, if I don't hit you before."
Abby heard Luka's voice behind her and his hand slid on her waist.
"Good evening, Ryan."
Ryan made a step behind.
"Good evening, doctor Kovac."
"Here we go." Luka asked Abby.
"Yes."
Luka came in the car. Abby looked at Ryan and without say a word, she entered in the car.

Luka hid Abby's eyes with his hand. He led her into the bedroom.
"And Ladies and Gentlemen after a romantic dinner..." He let Abby to discover the room. Abby opened big eyes. Luka made the bed with red sheets and he laid out roses' petals on it, a red envelope was on the Abby's cushion. Abby was amazed in front of the bed.
"Luka..."
He smiled.
"A fairic bed for a wonderful woman... Took the envelope..."
Abby took it and opened it, sitting on the bed. There were a photo and an official paper. The photo was a white house with a barrier and a front steps. It was beautiful. She read the paper.
"Oh my god... it's our house..."
"Yes... our house... in the suburb of Chicago."
"It's which house i saw..."
"Yes, I know."
"Oh my god, Luka!"
She jumped in his arms.
"I love you... thank you."
"Happy Valentine's day, baby."
"Happy Valentine's day."
They kissed each other.

[dosia]

great update :-))))))))

[Luby14]

Luka arrived in the bedroom with ice cream box. Abby admired her totally naked man, smiling. He jumped in the bed to cover up.
"Thank you, sir."
"You're welcome, lady."
Luka gave a teaspoon to Abby, who began to eat the ice cream.
"Luka..."
"Yup..."
"Thank you for this night..."
Luka nodded and grinned. Abby gave a spoonful to him.
"What time is it?" He asked.
"I'm talking about the willdest night we spent and you ask me the time? (She paused.) 4am."
"Thank you. I just wanted the time, to know if we have the time to begin again..."
"Luka! Again? Are you mad?"
He took the ice cream box and the teaspoons and put them on the floor.
"Yes. I'm totally crazy... about you. (He lie down on Abby) totally crazy about your body... your hair (He smelt her hair and pinched a petal which was on)... You smelt so good... "
"Kiss me instead of talk."
He kissed her. Abby bit his lip. Their lips parted.
"When will we move out?"
"Luka... please can you stop to talk when you're making love..."
He lowered his eyes.
"Okay... okay..."
He kissed her, Abby smiled full of satisfaction but he parted again.
Abby sighed.
"You're killing me! I want to make love, Luka."
He smiled, amused.
"I'm not killing you. I'm exciting you."
"Not really."
He kissed her, slidding on her neck, on her chest and on her belly. He felt Abby trembled.
"Here, you begin to excite me."
Luka grinned and bite her lips.

[dosia]

the next update - thanks Can't wait for more, I love fanfics!

[Lady_K]

Lovely updates!!

[Lubyfanatic316]

Great update!

[Luby14]

[Abby's POV]

I was sitting on the couch that Luka put in our new living room. Every time I was in this house, a smiled appeared on my face. At the first floor there were a big living-room with a fireplace, a kitchen, a bathroom and a room. At the second floor, there were three bedrooms and a bathroom. Luka and I had choose the most spacious bedroom, Luka had already mentionned the bedroom next our would be the baby's bedroom. I looked around me. The walls were whites no painted yet. Suddenly, Luka sat next to me.
"God...i'm tired."
"You know you're sexy when you become a handyman..."
He nodded and grinned. He's so sexy... I saw him bending over me.
"Kiss me..."
"Stop it..."
"Please...kiss me..."
I kissed him. I didn't know how but suddenly I didn't see anymore everything which were around me, I lost me in his wonderful glance.
Oh my god... one week yet and I'll become Mrs. Kovac... just one week...
He laid down on the couch, putting his head on my knees. I caressed his hair.
"Luka... you think I should do some exams..."
"About..."
"To know if I can have a baby."
"Abby, you can have a baby... be patient."
"But we try, everyday, since January. We're on the end of March."
"We'll try again. Please Abby, don't worry."
"Okay..."
I lay him... I was worry. Finally, I smiled inside.

One week later.

I was walking to the Coffee's truck.
"A coffee please."
"Okay."
Neela arrived next to me.
"Hello."
"Hello. How are you?"
"Fine, you?"
"Good, thanks. Do you want a coffee?"
"Why not... of you offer me..."
I nodded and turned to the man.
"Another coffee, please."
"No problem."
I turned to Neela and said.
"And with Ray?"
"What with Ray?"
"You and Ray..."
"There is no Ray and me."
"Don't lie."
"How do you know it?"
I smiled inside me. Neela was incredible. I began.
"Listen to me. I was certainly the first who tried to hide a relation ship with a colleague. Plus you can't lie to your best friend."
She lowered her eyes. I felt something was wrong.
"Neela...talk to me."
We began to walk to the ambulance bay.
"I slept with him, just one night. But he felt guilty toward Michael."
"It's quite normal."
"Yes, maybe... probably... Please don't talk about it. And you? Still nothing?"
"Nothing. No pregnancy on the horizon..." This words hurt me.
"Be patient."
"Yes. Maybe during our honey moon." I shrugged.
"I hope for you. Change the subject : Your wedding dress."
"Tomorrow at 11am. After Luka and I will go to the church to prepare the last things."
"Okay. I'll come with you for your dress. What will we go to the church?"
"5pm and at Ike's at 7pm."
"Great."
She smiled me and took me by the arm. I was so sad for her. She had lost her husband, her friend just few months after their wedding. It was so rapidly. I smiled and kissed her on her cheek like a sister would do.

I didn't manage to sleep this night. Luka worked and I was very worry about the wedding. I went to my meeting with Neela in front of the Wedding Dresses' shop. Neela was drinking a coffee. I crossed the street to go toward her.
"Good Morning!"
"Good Morning!"
"Here we go."
We entered in the shop. The woman gave me my dress and I went to put it on me in the fitting room. Neela was sitting on the armchair. I looked at me in the mirror. My dress was in lace with a lining in lycra. We talked through the curtain.
"Abby?"
"Yes?"
"I think I'm pregnant..."
I was freezing. I opened the curtain and looked at Neela with big eyes full of suprise.
"...You...are...what?"
"I think I'm pregnant..."
"Oh man. With Ray?"
"Yes."
I felt my face changed its appearence. My suprise became a smile.
"Oh god...You're expecting a baby..."
I was on the verge to cry. I opened my arms to receive my friend in.
"I'm so happy for you." I continued.
"I wanted you come with me... to my ultrasound."
"Of course, Neela. I'll come."
I smiled her and wiped her tears.

[dosia]

I like that Reela is included in this story Update!

[elsj]

i love it

[Luby14]

Wow, Neela was pregnant... I couldn't realize it yet... It was so rapidly... and she didn't seem really smiling. I would have liked to do something for her... but I didn't know what... In a certain extent this news hurt me... I can't thinking it!even if it was the truth...becouse of I didn't manage to be pregnant... I shook the head and walked to the church. Luka wasn't here, maybe he was inside. I went up steps and entered. Every time I entered in a church, I was ill-at-ease... but not today. I moved to the nave and looked around me to find Luka. A priest arrived next to me.
"Good evening, Miss."
"Good evening. Did you see my husband? (I re-began slowly) Did you see my future husband?"
"You're nervous...he's in the confessionnal."
I smiled inside. Luka and the religion, since Joe's death, he went to confess him, one time every week. He needed it to help hil to overcome our son's death. Me I prefered to talk to a psychologist. Suddenly, I jumped when Luka appeared. He moved toward me.
"Hey."
He kissed me.
"I began to talk with the priest before you arrive." He continued.
"So, it's finished..., isn't it?"
"Yeah. Finished until 5pm."
I felt a smile on my lips. When I glance to Luka, I thought to all this months which spent together... when we decided to come back together, when I broke his the news about the baby, the eight months where we were expecting Joe, the born... the death... and all this days of happiness and of love. Between us, it was just a question of love and of trust. I still smiled. Suddenly, we winced. My pager began to ring.
"Oh god!"
"Don't swear..."Luka whispered, grinning. "Come we go outside."
We walked to the street.
"Who is it?"
"ER."
"Call."
Luka gave me his cell phone. I dialed the phone number.
"Yeah, Frank it's Abby. Who paged me? What happen? My...what? My...okay, thanks. We'll arrive. Thank you."
I picked out and gave the phone to Luka.
"What happen?"
"Did you invited my mother."
Luka nodded, lowering his eyes.
"Why, Luka?"
"I didn't invite her, because I knew you didn't want."
"Who is it, so?"
"Abby, I don't know...but it's your mother. She have the right to be here today."
"Not today, not tomorrow, not soon... do you understand me?"
Luka sighed. I felt the anger travelled in my body, up and down. I turned and began to go away.
"Abby! Wait for me."
"No!"
"It's not me."
"Who is it?"
"I don't know...maybe it's a coincidence."
"I don't think."
Luka stopped and opened the car door, without any words. Trust... A question of trust. I get into the car and looked at him, putting my hand on his leg.
"I'm sorry..."
He lowered the head. I knew he felt him guilty when he did this gesture.
"I didn't want something was wrong today..."
He looked at me, and smiled to answer me.
"Here we go?"
"Yes."

[Lubyfanatic316]

Great update!

[Noora]

It was awesome !

[Luby14]

A mother... Everybody has a mother... sometimes she's attentive and lovely, sometimes she's overprotective maybe too much, sometimes she's totally absente. Mine, she was absente, she wasn't a mother. She wanted to be a friend and not a mother. She was and she is bipolar. When my father leaves I was 7. I don't remember exactly how my mother reacted... I just remember what the first thing I did was to take my brother in my arms and to lull him. My mother began to cry in front of us, like a little girl who had just lost a doll. I looked through the window car. Luka was driving. I looket at my watch. 1pm. Three hours yet. I knew everything was ready but... now my mother was here... Luka nodded to me. He took my hand and squeezed it.
"I'm sure that everything will be okay."
Luka has always been like that, before and now, always he tries to find the best into everybody even if don't know them. He was done with my mother, with my brother, and if I remind myself even with Richard... He's always nice with people, he loves to help them, especially me... me and all my problems... He smiled again.
"Volim te, Abby."
I smiled. I love when he speaks croatian. He's sexy... i didn't answer to him, my glance turned to look outside. We arrived. Luka took my hand and led me to the hospital. I had the bad impression that I wasn't on the earth but in another world. We entered in the hospital. Luka kissed my cheek and whispered me in my ear :
"I'll see if everything is good, here."
"Okay."
I went to the admit desk where was Franck.
"Franck, where is she?"
"Room 5."
"Thanks" I came in the room 5 and I saw her, sat on the couch, but something suprised me. There was a man with her.
"Maggie..."
She turned to me.
"Abigail..."
She came to me and took me in arms.
"Oh...Abby... I'm so glad to see you."
"Me...I'm surprise."
"Come, I would like to present you someone."
She led me to the man : grey hair, dark eyes, nice smile...
I smiled to him.
"Abby, I present you, Andrew, my fiancé."
Oh Bog! I shook my head. Crap! I begin to swear in croatian now!
Maggie continued.
"Andy... I present you, my daughter, Abigail."
He held out his hand to me. I held out mine to me.
"Nice to meet you, Abigail. Your mother talked about you a lot of time."
"Please call me Abby."
"Okay, Abby, if you call me, Andy."
"Okay."
I felt this smile on my face, a wrong smile, I couldn't wipe it. Luka arrived in the room.
"Hey! Maggie."
"Luka! I'm glad to see you."
"Me too."
Luka threw a look at me, a interrogative look.
"Luka this is my fiancé, Andrew. Andrew this is my...future son-in-law, Luka."
Luka greeted Andrew. My mother was very... happy. She added.
"I was surprised when the nurse told me about your wedding."
"Yes... mom... I..."
"Abby, I know that you didn't want to invite me. But now, I'm here..."
"Yeah of course..."
I rolled my eyes. Luka gave a blow to me with his elbow.
"Yes, stay... for the wedding."
"I'll stay, if you want, but you'll come to mine's."
I froze. What? Abby! Your mother will be married! I'm making a nightmare. I'll wake me up in a couple of seconds. No...it was impossible...
Luka gave a blow to me again to I anwser to her.
"We'll see..."
"Oh Abby... please..."
I bit my lip until the blood.
"Yes!"
I pretended to be happy, smiling. I took her in my arms to congratulate her.
"It's... great." I said.
"I know...totally...crazy."
She grinned. I smiled...wrong...

I was walking up and down in the rest room. Luka entered.
"Abby?"
"It's not the moment! I'm thinking. I need to smoke."
"Certainly not."
"I need it!"
"Oh god! Abby, please! Stop, you gave me a headache to walk like that!"
"And you, you're killin' me to not allow me to smoke."
He rolled his eyes.
"Abby... It's not ... dramatic..."
"What? Is it not dramatic? My mother is... will be married."
"And? You too."
"But..."
"Not but, you'll married in two hours."
"I know!"
Oh no! I shouted. Luka lowered his eyes, like he was hurt.
"Luka... please... it's my mother... Maggie, don'y you remember of this unstable woman?"
"She had changed. She's meds now."
"Maybe..."
Luka looked at me.
"You must stop it, Abby. You stopped to take care of your mother, 3 years ago. Now, she can take care of herself."
"And you, you should stop to say to me what I must do."
Luka shook the head.
"Okay."
He went out, closing the door violently.
"Shit!"

54 minutes before the zero hour, and Luka was nowhere to be found. I shivered. Neela arrived with my wedding dress.
"Hey."
"Hey..."
"Are you okay?"
"Not really. Have you got news about Luka?"
Neela lowered her eyes. She didn't dare to look at me.
"No."
"Oh god! I'll kill him!"
"Abby... it's nothing. he'll arrive in few minutes, i'm sure."
"We fought."
"What?"
"About my mother. Oh Crap! She's always in the center of my problems!"
"Don't worry. During you're preapring yourself. Dress, make up, hair... I'll find him."
Suddenly, someone opened the door. Susan appeared with a big smile on her face.
"Hello the bride!"
"Susan!"
I took her in my arms. I was so happy she was here. When she was here, everything seemed to be not important, everything was funny.
"Thanks to be here."
"Hey! I'm your friend. Your best friend, it's normal I'm here."
I smiled.
"Apparently, it would seem that the groom disappeared...?"
I lowered my eyes, shaking my head. I dropped into an armchair.
"Oh please... I feel so guilty."
"What happen?" She sat next to me, Neela did the same.
"We fought about Maggie."
"Your mother? Is she here?"
"Yes."
"Ouch!"
"Yup..."
Neela stood up.
"Put on your dress. Ray will find Luka."
I went to put on my dress. I heard Neela and Susan who were talking. Five minutes later, I returned to them. Susan grinned.
"Abby...you're...wow."
I felt I went red.
"Thanks..."
Neela jumped when the door opened up behind her. Luka appeared. I felt a heat grew up inside me.
"Luka..."I whispered. He didn't smile. Susan and Neela made me a sign and went out. Luka closed the door behind them.
"Where were you?"
"Abby..."
"Luka... you were affraid me, I was worried. Where were you?"
Why he didn't talk?!
"Abby... We must talk."