Chapter 16The party was a huge success with everyone; during the day Luka did a barbecue and everyone had fun jumping into the pool fully clothed, some stripping down a bit once the alcohol started flowing. Later on at night everyone started to leave after a while. Abby, Luka, Ray, Neela, Morris, Sam and Alex where left out the back, before long Sam announced it was time for her and Alex to head home.
“Come on Alex… I’m too tired for this” Sam said, as Alex stayed seated on the steps next to Luka.
Why can’t we stay? Neela and Ray are staying” Alex protested.
“Come on mate, your mom’s right… you can come by another time ok?” Luka tried to reason with him while getting up from the step, just then Ana started to cry.
“I’ll go” Abby said getting up, after it became apparent Luka wasn’t going to go see her.
“Thanks for coming Sam, Alex see you again soon” Abby said smiling and walking in the back door.
“Bye Abs!” Alex shouted as the door shut.
“How come her gets to call her Abs, but she hits me when I call her it?” Morris asked.
“She likes me idiot,” Alex said looking down at Morris.
“Hey! Move Alex… I’m not kidding!” Sam said yanking him up.
“Fine… see you later Luka” Alex said grabbing his shoes.
“See you later man” Luka said sitting back down and taking a drink of beer.
After another half and hour Morris, Neela, Ray and Luka noticed Abby hadn’t come back down, they decided it was time they went. Luka look up the stairs after he shut the front door, deciding whether to climb them or not, after a few more seconds he grabbed onto the banister and pulled himself up. Reaching the top he headed into Ana’s bedroom. He looked at the cot to see Ana sleeping with a nightlight on in the corner. He shut the door over and moved into his bedroom, it was empty.
“Abs?” Luka called as he shut the door, she wasn’t in the bedroom, Luka stuck his head into the bathroom. “Where did you disappear to?” He saw Abby sit on the edge on the bathtub with her legs crossed and her chin being supported buy her hand.
“I put Ana down… Luka I think I’m pregnant, but I’ve been cramping all day…”
“What?” Luka asked looking confused, shocked and happy all at the same time, somehow ignoring the last thing Abby had said.
“I’m 5 weeks late, but…”
“Abby that’s amazing! I can’t believe we’re going to have another baby” Luka moved towards Abby but she stood and moved out of his way and back into the bedroom. “What’s the matter?”
“I don’t know if I can do it again.” Abby said looking out of the window.
“What? I don’t understand” Luka said sitting at the edge of the bed.
“I don’t know if I want any more kids, Luka”
“But … I mean when we had Ana we were so happy… why wouldn’t you want to do it again?”
“I don’t know… something inside of me just doesn’t want to go through it again. Don’t get me wrong I love Ana more than anything in this world… I love you both so much Luka. I just don’t think I want anymore kids”
“I thought when we had Ana and moved in here we’d move forward as a family Abby… more kids, marriage one day maybe…” The alcohol in Luka’s system had started to take affect on there argument.
“I don’t know why your not happy with things they way they are!” Abby said nearly shouting at Luka, her hormones starting to take affect.
“I don’t know why you wouldn’t be happy with more kids!”
Abby cut him off almost instantly. “When you thought I had an abortion with Ana, you said that we could get through it, it didn’t mean we couldn’t be together… now it’s like your back tracking on what you said! You need kids to be with me!” Abby said shouting more, getting angrier and now pacing the floor at the end of their bed.
“I did mean what I said… I do mean what I said… but since we’ve had Ana-Lucia and things have been so good I don’t know why you wouldn’t want more with me”
“This isn’t about you! I still have all the same fears I had before I made my decision about keeping Ana… about how it would change things again!”
“About the baby being bipolar” Luka said almost in a whisper.
“Yes, about the baby being bipolar! I still have that fear for Ana… it will never go away Luka! I just want to get Ana through as normal a life as I can”
“Having kids shouldn’t be about you trying to protect them against being bipolar Abby! It should be about loving them, helping them grow. Full stop”
“Maybe that’s your look on it all but it’s not mine ok! I want to be here with you and Ana…Why aren’t we enough for you?!” Abby said shouting the last part and then it came… the sound of Ana crying.
With the crying in the next room and the tension between Luka and Abby, Luka stormed past Abby and down the stairs. Abby stood letting everything that had just happened wash over her, she heard the front door slam, with that the crying turned into screaming she quickly went into Ana’s room and took her out of her cot and held her close calming Ana and herself down.
“Don’t worry, he’ll be back soon baby” Abby said sitting down in her rocking chair with Ana.
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