Ok Guys and Gals last update from me on this fic.
I'm currently working on another one so i'll try get that up sometime soon
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My medical knowledge isn’t really up to scratch… so some of this may not be accurate… but please use your imagination.Chapter 19Luka stood outside room 28, he looked through the glass window, he saw her, lying in the bed with her head tipped to the side, she was looking out of the window, looking out into Chicago. He didn’t want to disturb her, but this was something that needed to be done. Breathing in heavily he pushed open the door. Disturbing her thoughts Abby turned her head to look at Luka who came in and stood at her bedside.
“Hi” Luka said, almost a whisper.
She could tell he was upset. “Hi yourself”
“Abby… we need to talk”
“Is it about my surgery? Because Janet hasn’t come into see me yet”
“I told her I would talk to you… because I really need to talk to you” Luka said sitting next to Abby on the bed.
“Luka…”
“No Abby. Let me say this. I’m so sorry about what happened, the stupid fight. I didn’t mean any of that to happen or anything I said. Of course you are enough for me… you both are. But I was upset and a bit drunk. I shouldn’t have shouted at you. I know how hard it was for you to make your decision to keep Ana, and I know you are finding it hard some days… even though you don’t tell me how hard you find it”
“Luka… stop. I shouldn’t have just dropped it on you like that. But I was cramping so bad. I needed you help”
“I know… and I ran away…”
“You were in shock, I was too, and it never seemed real until I told you. Just like the last time outside of Ike’s… when I told you it hit me… we were going to have a baby”
“Abby, I need to talk to you about the surgery” Luka cut her off before she started talking again. Abby nodded her head and Luka took her hand off the bed “Coburn took you into the OR, you were bleeding really heavily. Abby… you weren’t just miscarrying. When it happened… you ripped your uterus, which was causing you to bleed more” Luka now had tears in his eyes and Abby’s tears were now running down her cheeks. “Abby…”
“Don’t say it Luka”
“Abby, they had to perform a hysterectomy”
“No!” Abby sobbed as Luka told her, she was so close the last time and this time it happened. Luka hated to see her in such a state. There was nothing he could say to turn back time, get her to the hospital quicker so he did what he thought would help them both he moved up on the bed and held Abby. She let herself fall into his embrace, feeling his arms around her made her feel safe and loved, but nothing could stop her crying, grieving for everything she had lost in the last few house.
After a while of just sitting holding each other Abby pulled out and sat up a little, wincing in pain.
“Luka?”
“Yeh?”
“What does this mean for us?”
“What do you mean? It doesn’t change anything for us” Luka said now sitting up and trying to look Abby in the eye showing her he meant it.
“You want to be with me? I can’t give you any more children,” Abby said turning to look out of the window again, to avoid his gaze.
“Abby… you’ve given me something that no one else could have given me… you’ve given me you. Your heart let me in your life again. You’ve given me our daughter. You’ve given me a family to love” Luka rested his hand on Abby’s cheek and moved her head to look at him. “I love you Abby. Nothing will change that. Ok?” Abby gave Luka a small smile and layback down curling into Luka’s body. He repeatedly gave her small kisses on her forehead until he felt her hand on his cheek and bring his head down into a long lingering kiss.
After what seemed like hours of lying on the hospital bed there was a small tap on the glass of Abby’s door. Luka looked over to see Neela standing at the door with Ray. He waved them in. Abby looked over to the door, watching Ray hold open the door and Neela came in with Ana walking in front of her, holding Ana’s hands over her head to keep her up.
“Hey you guys… take a look at this” Neela let go of Ana’s hands and she took two wobbly steps before falling on her bum.
“Look at you” Luka smiled at Ana sitting on the floor clapping in response to seeing her daddy smile at her.
“We thought we’d give you some time with Ana, and then we’ll take her home with us” Neela said picking Ana up and taking her over to Abby and Luka.
“Thanks Neela” Neela went round and gave Abby a hug before walking back out into the hall with Ray.
“Look at you… walking and everything” Abby said stroking the side of Ana’s head and playing with her hair.
“You’re getting a big girl aren’t you?” Luka moved her up in between them on the bed as she giggled.
“This is all I want Luka… a family” Abby said taking Luka’s free hand that had been resting on his leg.
“This is all I want as well… you and Ana” Luka said reaching over and kissing Abby’s forhead.
“You know how you said you didn’t mean anything you said when we were fighting?”
“I mean it as well”
“Well I was kind of hoping you didn’t” Abby said shyly before looking back at him.
“What do you mean?” Luka looked her in the eye not breaking contact, even to blink.
“You said you wanted marriage one day…” Abby said smiling. Luka knew what she meant, the twinkle in her eyes said it all.
The End