Post by licorice on Mar 13, 2006 1:40:40 GMT 10
I thought about doing a fanfic only in the form of diary entries, meaning I can update it whenever I want to. If you have any comments, please let me know, whether it's good or bad!
Dear Diary,
It finally feels like my life is coming together, everything is getting in the right place. What I have now is everything I have ever dreamt of, yet it scares me like I am walking at the edge of a cliff, I could fall down any moment. Luka constantly reassures me and makes me feel as if I'm the most wonderful person on earth, but I'm so scared to lose it all. To lose him, to have something happen to our baby, or to have a relationship with my child that's similar to the one I have with my mother. Although I know Luka will make a fabulous father after having seen him with Sam, I'm new at this and I don't know if and how it will all work.
Enough talking about my permanent insecurities, today Luka and I went baby shopping again. This time we got a hold of the maternity clothes we were unable to find during our last shopping spree, Luka even helped me try them on to check if I would still look sexy. "Women are at their most beautiful when they're pregnant, they shine even brighter than the sun," were his exact words after I had spent the entire morning complaining. They might be beautiful, but they also have their worst mood swings. Luckily my man can make it all go away with one of his gorgeous smiles or tender kisses.
This love I have right now is so wonderful, I just don't know if I really deserve it. There are so many people who have been hurt by men, yet here I am with the most perfect person you could ever find. I know that Luka could never hurt me on purpose, I see the way he cares about me in his eyes, he's always looking after me. He's the love of my life and he's my best friend. Sometimes I think back to the time we were together and I wasn't happy with him, wondering how I could ever not love him enough to be happy with him. I love the way he holds me, kisses me and takes care of me like I'm the most precious thing in the world. I found my Mr. Right and I now realized that it wasn't that bad after all to never want anybody who was "just" second best.
Love,
Abby Lockhart
Dear Diary,
It finally feels like my life is coming together, everything is getting in the right place. What I have now is everything I have ever dreamt of, yet it scares me like I am walking at the edge of a cliff, I could fall down any moment. Luka constantly reassures me and makes me feel as if I'm the most wonderful person on earth, but I'm so scared to lose it all. To lose him, to have something happen to our baby, or to have a relationship with my child that's similar to the one I have with my mother. Although I know Luka will make a fabulous father after having seen him with Sam, I'm new at this and I don't know if and how it will all work.
Enough talking about my permanent insecurities, today Luka and I went baby shopping again. This time we got a hold of the maternity clothes we were unable to find during our last shopping spree, Luka even helped me try them on to check if I would still look sexy. "Women are at their most beautiful when they're pregnant, they shine even brighter than the sun," were his exact words after I had spent the entire morning complaining. They might be beautiful, but they also have their worst mood swings. Luckily my man can make it all go away with one of his gorgeous smiles or tender kisses.
This love I have right now is so wonderful, I just don't know if I really deserve it. There are so many people who have been hurt by men, yet here I am with the most perfect person you could ever find. I know that Luka could never hurt me on purpose, I see the way he cares about me in his eyes, he's always looking after me. He's the love of my life and he's my best friend. Sometimes I think back to the time we were together and I wasn't happy with him, wondering how I could ever not love him enough to be happy with him. I love the way he holds me, kisses me and takes care of me like I'm the most precious thing in the world. I found my Mr. Right and I now realized that it wasn't that bad after all to never want anybody who was "just" second best.
Love,
Abby Lockhart