Skin to Skin.
Abby.I jumped slightly when hearing a knock at my bedroom door looking up I see Neela poking her head around the door she moved out already but likes to pop back and check on me I think Susan is paying her extra.
“Abby, I’m sorry if I’m bothering you, I know you really want to be alone, but Luka is here.”
Sitting up quickly a little bit startled if I’m truthful “Luka here? Why?” I put my arms in the air kind of shrugging my shoulders at her.
“He says he wants to see you, You know see how you’re doing.”
Yeah cause that’s what he wants really “Well, tell him I’m fine, just tell him I’m sleeping or something, Tell him to go away if the moment takes you” I tell her with a hint of sarcasm.
“Abby, he’s kind of standing in your kitchen…”
Oh my god is she stupid or what? I throw my pillow at her off the bed “You let him in?” I asked her angrily she looks confused for a few seconds then kind of like a light bulb turned on in her head.
“What was I supposed to do? Shut the door on him? I realize that you don’t want to talk to anybody him most of all for some reason and I also realize that you want everyone to leave you alone but Well, it’s kind of not going to happen.”
I laugh at her sarcasm.
“You have friends believe it or not you do and I figured that since you’ve known Luka longer than maybe you’d talk to him and plus you can’t keep hide it will do you good to talk about it… so get your ass out of bed and go….”
I think she is finished she looks a little shocked at her sudden outburst but proud of herself too “I hate you” I tell her bitterly she has a point though so getting up we walk out of the room I see Luka immediately as I walk into the kitchen He’s leaning against the counter looking out the window.
“Bye”
Neela shouts as she shuts the door it gets Luka’s attention and he stairs at me as I stand against the door frame with my arms crossed over my chest “What are you doing here?” I asked with a hint of nastiness.
“Abby, hi how are you?”
I smiled scornfully at him I only seen me yesterday in the lounge “I’ve been better” I see him making his way across the room to me “I’m fine Luka really” he stops at the chair hearing my voice he runs the piece of wood through his hand he knows I’m not fine.
He was still able to read me like an open book and I knew this so I decide to quickly divert the eye contact and start a new subject “So really, Luka Why are you here?” I look out the window.
“Abby, everyone just wants to know how you are really I mean you stormed out of the ER the other day then came back we all want to help you have some more time off.”
Luka.She shrugs her shoulders she’s still looking out of the window she really thinks if I can’t see her eyes I can’t tell what she is feeling.
“Bills don’t pay themselves.”
I decide to get brave and take a couple of steps toward her “Abby, all you have to do is say the word and…” I reach up and rub her cheek softly.
“I don’t need your help, Luka!”
She interrupted me her voice is angry she’s so damn stubborn “Would you ask if you did need help?” she’s unable to find a right reply “I didn’t think so” I tell her harshly.
“Do you really think I would come to you, of all people, if I needed someone do you honestly think that it would be you who I came running to? You think you know me, but you really don’t Luka, you know nothing!”
She pulls away from me and walks around the table towards the sink “I know you better than you think I do” I turn around so I’m facing the window she has her back to me still.
“Can we just drop this? You don’t know me it’s simple you never did I was just a f**k remember Luka?”
This makes me angry she has always been so much more then a f**k “ok I was an ass the other week I shouldn’t of made a pass at you but I thought it was what you wanted but now I know I was taking advantage but don’t dare tell me what I know!” I walk up to the sink where she is standing.
“Because I know that when you get in trouble, you don’t want people making a big deal about it, you like to go through life drawing as little attention to yourself as possible” I take a step forwards.
“I know you don’t trust yourself enough to let yourself trust someone You think the only one that can help is you and it’s wrong!” I take another step towards her.
“I know you still close yourself off you won’t let people try well guess what Abby? Sometimes you have to let go you have to let people try Abby” I rest my hand on her shoulders for a few seconds before turning her around to face me she continues to stare at the floor I can tell she is holding back tears.
“You have changed so much in the past year for the better but this one thing, this one experience are you going to let it force you back to the way you were? We all have our obstacles to get over in life Abby But none of us have to do it alone let me help you? God I still know you look beautiful in the morning, and your favourite pizza is plain because it’s simple, I know you would rather wear jeans then a dress” I run my finger under her chin making her look at me.
“It was horrible Luka It was horrible…I never thought I would make it out alive.”
She managed to say between sobs as she finally gives in and falls into my arms “It’s over now, Abby Let it out” I whispered softly finally she gives in to me and she isn’t pushing me away emotionally unlike so many times in before.
“Don’t leave me…”
She repeats herself over and over as I hold her tighter towards my chest laying soft sweet kisses on top of her head I knew for the first time since her abduction she felt safe.