As time goes by.
Abby.“Your telling me smart, beautiful, caring and well simply amazing in every way doesn’t deserve to be happy?”
He leans in and plants a kiss on my nose “I’m a bad person” that will shut him up he needs to know I’m not the perfect person he thinks I am.
“Bad person? I doubt that Abby.”
I shake my head for a guy with a PHD he’s not that smart “What you told me about your past your family?” I pull away from him picking my mug of coffee up I walk and rest against the side clinging to it.
“Yeah I told you everything.”
The sadness in his eyes still shine through “Well not only am I a drunk I’m a murder, I had an abortion” the look changes from hurt to disgust.
“But you, you love kids Maddie is your life?”
I can tell he’s struggling to find the words “Not so caring, loving smart now huh? More like a selfish drunk” he shakes his head not wanting to believe it I guess.
“I need some air.”
He tells me grabbing his shirt off the couch he heads to the door “Luka please don’t leave not like this, Luka….” The door slams shut and he’s gone.
Luka.I’ve been walking for about 30 seconds when it hits me and the tears build in my eyes I turn around “why?” she’s standing inches away from me I knew she was behind me I don’t know how but I just did.
“I couldn’t, I couldn’t bring another child into the mess Richard an I called a marriage, it was bad enough Maddie had to hear us fighting screaming about his affairs my drinking I just couldn’t.”
I make my way closer to her one small step at a time “did he know?” she drops her head looking at the side walk I reach out and tilt her chin up.
“No it was before we left before we came here it was over and I didn’t want him to change my mind.”
I look her straight into the eyes “then why get rid of it why not come here and have a fresh start?” I don’t understand.
“He still would have known and made me go back and hell you we wouldn’t if I was pregnant!”
I shake her head “don’t use me as an ex…” before I can finish she cuts me off getting rather pissed.
“I wasn’t ok it’s not your fault it’s mine it’s all my f**king fault Luka ok?”
She spins around my hand comes free from her face and she heads back into the apartment building.
AbbyI storm up the stairs quickly I always screw things up why do I even bother I should just crawl under a f**king rock and hide away forever.
“Hiding won’t make things go away!”
I spin around and see Luka standing in the doorway “I didn’t…” he rushes over to me his hands rest either side of my face pulling me in we kiss.
“You don’t need to speak I know what and how you think.”
He kisses me again “Luka” I pull back a little to look at him “I we…” I struggle to find the words.
“I don’t care who you were it’s who you are I love.”