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Post by strizzy on Sept 19, 2006 3:45:40 GMT 10
Great update!
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 19, 2006 7:35:10 GMT 10
This is not a regular update. It's a Susan POV. Sorry for that....Luka called, something happened over at Abby’s house and she needs me. I rush my way trough the traffic and within 15 minutes I arrive at her apartment. Luka is waiting for me, he looks so mad and desperate. “What happened?” I ask him. “We were busy in the living and all of the sudden her ex-husband comes in on us. She didn’t close the door behind her. He yelled and threatened that she can’t see Katie.” I can see his shocked and concerned. “What can I do?” I ask him again. This time with a bit of anxious in my voice. “Could you stay with her for a while. I need to get Micha from school and make sure Dani and Sam are going to my place. I called Neela and she will help the kids. Thanks Susan.” And he walks to his car. I go inside to find Abby crying on the couch, her knees pulled up to her chin and her head resting on them. She looks so little. I walk over to her not knowing what to say. I try to comfort her but it doesn’t work. I make some coffee in the kitchen but she doesn’t want it. I don’t have the right words to say I want to hold you in my arms, But you do not want to be held. I want to say comforting words, But you don’t want to be comfort. I want to cry with you, But you don’t let me be a part. After an hour she finally stops crying. She looks at me, I’m sitting on the other side of her and hold her hand. “Susan, my life is hopeless.” She says. “No Abby it’s not. You had the strength to run away and start all over again. You did a good thing.” I say. “I’m not sure. He will take Katie away from me. I know I’ve never been a good mom to her but I want to change it. I do love her.” She starts crying again. “Abs, he can’t do that. We will fight. Come her.” And I take her into my arms. You my friend, You need me now. I’ll be there for you, You need me now. Come over here and give me your pain. You need me now. Cry, yell and curse towards me, You need me now. Just know that I’m here for you cause, You need me now. After a lot more of crying she asks for Luka. I tell her why he’s gone and what he’s doing. Right then she tells me what happened between them. With that bright smile of her, from ear till ear. Her eyes twinkle and I know she will be alright. “Abs, I’m so happy for you! Luka is great for you. And for his kids and Sam. If Katie will be back in your life he will be great for her too. He will give you everything you need.” I say. “I know he’s a good guy. And no Susan he’s not everything I need. Cause I need you too. Your such a wonderful person, you light up a room when you walk in. Susan, you gave me the strength to fight for my new life. You helped me with the whole Sam stuff. I need you too.” And she shivers. Tired from the day and the last couple of hours. “Go to bed and take some rest. If Luka is back I’ll wake you.” I give her my ‘I’m worried about you’ look. “Don’t worry Suz. What about Sam? God she had to be home by now and doing homework.” She yawns. “It’s all taking care over. She’s at Luka’s and Neela is there to help them with homework and will feed them. Go to bed now!” And she gets up and walks up the stairs. After half an hour I go see her. She’s sleeping. Sleep my dearest friend, It will make you feel better. Sleep my dearest friend, It will take away the pain. Sleep my dearest friend, It will take away the fear. Sleep my dearest friend, It will give you back your heart. I watch her and realize that she’s my special friend. A friend you need in your life. Someone that will jump trough fire for you. I just wish that I could take her pain so she could enjoy the love from all the people around her. I know I can’t so I just wanna stay with her to comfort her. I know she’s a hard one to crack but I know I can do it. I want to find out what is hurting her so badly. It has to be something with her mom, I know Abby never felt her mom loved her. She had so much pain in her young life, and now she has it again. Some day she will crack open about her feelings and I will be there. poems written by myself.
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Post by jadestar on Sept 19, 2006 16:48:03 GMT 10
oh wonderful update - love Susan and your poems are really good
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Post by LoveLuka on Sept 20, 2006 2:06:51 GMT 10
great job love the story
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Post by strizzy on Sept 20, 2006 22:24:48 GMT 10
Great update!
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 20, 2006 22:26:08 GMT 10
The ‘Richard Incident’ happened two months ago. I wasn’t going to plan to ruin my new relationship with Luka and the bond between Sam and me. I continued life and took every bit of it. Since that day Luka never left side of me, we lived practically together. But the house was too small for three kids. Sam shared a room with Dani and due to that, Micha was jealous. The living room and kitchen are one single space and the bathroom is build for one person. In the mornings, its hectic all the kids are yelling and screaming and we try to manage them. The evenings were also hectic cause one of us was out to work. If I had home shift, the kids called it that way, I ran around the house to help them with homework and try to please everyone in dinner. It is hard cause although it looks happy Dani and Sam do fight a lot. Today we both have the day of and I’m going to sleep as long as possible.
“Daddy!!!!!!” Micha screams from the bathroom to Luka. “Be quite Abby is still sleeping.” Luka tries to whisper to his son. “Don’t bother I’m a wake.” I say when I walk up to him. “Good morning beautiful” And he kisses my fore head. I always love that, it makes me feel warm inside. “Morning you to.” And I kiss him back. I walk over to the kitchen to get some coffee and start making breakfast and lunch. “Dani! I was first up so I get the shower first! And stay away from my clothes!!” Sam screams with her nasty voice. “You didn’t get up first! I was awake at six so I could shower first this time! Come on Sam I need to be in early!” Dani yells back at her. “Girls! Please! Be quite! Dani the shower is yours. Sam come here and eat your breakfast.” I say to both of them. Sam sits on the opposite of me and I can see she’s not happy with this. “Sam, do you want to go back to my house? Be honest.” I ask her. “It’s not that I don’t like them but its just so crowded. If the house was just a bit bigger it was ok.” She says. “So you wanna move back?” I search in her eyes but can’t find a thing. “No. I love it to be surrounded by people that love me. But at the moment it’s too much! You know.” She says with her mouth full of cereals. “I understand. I will talk about it with Luka.” I say and walk over to Micha to give him his cereals.
When the kids are gone and the house is empty its time for us. We don’t have much us-time cause there is always something to do. Right now I need to talk. For Sam. For all of us. “Luka, I talked with Sam. She’s not happy with the way we live right now. I asked her if she wanted to move back to my apartment but she doesn’t.” I say when I let my head rest against his chest. “I know. Dani has the same thing. And Micha hates it that he needs to get out of bed first. And although I love kids I hate it that we can’t have sex at night. Cause Dani and Sam will hear it.” He says. I can see his counting back. “2 Weeks ago Luka. When Neela was with the kids and we sneaked into my apartment.” I look up and smile. “I will think about it Abs.” He says and kisses me in my neck.
It’s 4o clock in the afternoon and we are in bed. We had the best sex ever. It was like firework. It felt like I was in heaven. He’s sleeping and I try to get out cause the kids will be home any minute. In the kitchen I make a pot of tea and put on some music. Then I hear Micha’s voice. Gone with the peace. “Abby! I can read a book!” Micha says. “Good job kiddo! Will you read it to me tonight?” I ask him. “Sure! Where’s daddy?” He asks. “In bed. He was tired.” I say and give him some lemonade. “Homework?” “No. So can I play in the park?” “Sure. But first drink your lemonade.”
Half an hour later Dani walks in with storm in her eyes. “I’m up and leave me alone.” She says and shut the door of her room. Just a minute after her Sam walks in. “Where is she? Where is Dani?” She yells. “Sam calm down a little will you. Sit and tell me what’s wrong.” I tell her. “That kid told the whole school I live with my sister instead of my mom and that my mom is crazy. She told them that I was a orphan. I’m not Abby. I’m not.” She starts crying. “No your not. And what’s wrong with living with your sister? Just because I’m 10 years older it doesn’t mean that I’m not cool.” I rub her back. “Its just that the whole class laughed at me. And they will think I’m a freak just like Maggie.” She shivers. “Your not. I’ll talk with Dani. Come on and drink some tea. And take that chocolate bar from the fridge.” I say and walk away. “Dani Kovac open up that door right now!” I yell. “Go away!” She yells back. But I manage to open the door and walk in. She’s lying on her bed, crying. Great two girls crying in one house. “Dani, what you said about Sam isn’t nice. Why did you that?” I ask her. “Hell she told the whole school that my mom died in Croatia and that dad talks funny. She also told them that we don’t have enough money for a real house.” She cries heavily. “That’s also not nice. Lets come with me and we will talk about it with the three of us.” I say and help her to get up. “Girls, were gonna talk. This can’t continue.” I say when they both are sitting in the kitchen, looking angry at each other. “I know I said mean things about you Dani but I didn’t mean it that way. I’m sorry.” Sam says to Dani. “Me too Sam. But I was just a little mad. And I really don’t think it’s weird that your living with your sister.” Dani says to Sam. “World peace.” Is all I can say. They laugh and everything is back to normal. “Well girls I need to make myself look beautiful cause Luka and I are going out tonight. Neela will be here any minute. She’s taking you to McDonalds.” I say and walk away to the bathroom.
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Post by strizzy on Sept 20, 2006 22:42:17 GMT 10
Great update!
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Post by LoveLuka on Sept 21, 2006 6:29:57 GMT 10
i absolutly love the update
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 21, 2006 21:28:23 GMT 10
We are at a fancy restaurant. The food is marvelous. I never had something that good in my life. And all the sudden I realize what will happen tonight. I excuse myself and walk to the bathroom. Big, gigantic bathroom! I take out my sell phone and text message to Susan: ‘Its time I think. You need to come over tomorrow. Luka has a early shift. Love Abby.’ I put it back in my bag and walk back to Luka. “Do you want dessert?” He asks. “Yes. I never skip dessert you know that.” And I laugh at him. He takes my hand. I feel my heart everywhere, even in my tiny toe. My cell is vibrating, Susan has sent something back. And then Luka starts talking. “Abby, I love you. From the first time, I lead eyes on you. I felt the spark between us. I only felt love once in my life before, this is different. Pure and solid. This will last forever and will be made by our hearts. We will be there for one and another. Fight every demon that comes after us. Abby I want you in my life for good.” He stops and tries to get something out his pocket. I swallow a laugh away knowing this isn’t the time laugh. He stands up and comes beside me. Kneels down on one knee and again takes my hand. He swallows. “Abby, I want you in my life forever. I want to grow old with you. Abigail Lockhart, will you marry me?” He let go a deep breath. I swallow, and swallow. Tears are burning in my eyes. “Luka…..” Shit I can’t get my words out. “Yes.” Just my simply yes makes him cry. My big tall Croatian hansom guy is crying due to my little weak Yes. He opens the ring-case and a beautiful ring pops up. He takes it out and put on my finger. Finally, my tears are free and I let go. Our waiter is speechless and congrats us. He offers us a bottle of champagne. But Luka wants to go home. And I…I want to hold him close and never let go of him again. In the car we both are not speaking. Traffic lights make us kiss and hug. We pull up in Luka’s street and we see the lights are on in Micha’s room. Only the girls will be in the living room. “Should we tell them right away?” I ask. “Not yet. I want to take them out for dinner and tell them. That would be a more comfortable way I think.” He says. I nod. Before we go in, he kisses me again on my forehead, cheek, neck and mouth. “Abby, did you eat a light ball or something?” Neela asks when Luka is with Micha. “No. Why?” I say to her. Not looking at her cause she will notice something happened. “Your glowing. But I have to go my shift starts in half an hour. Bye!” She says. I let her out. When I’m back in the kitchen I take out my cell and read Susan’s message. ‘Abby! Your so lucky!! I hope it is what you were thinking. I’ll be there at 10. Love Suz.’ “What are you doing?” Luka asks when he sees me. “Nothing. Lets go to bed. I need to feel your arms around me.” I say. “Hm sounds great. Shall I rub your back and kiss in your neck?” He’s teasing me. “o doctor yeah.” I say and walk away. In bed he takes out his trouser and with that a little piece of paper comes out of his back pocket. “I forgot something….I had this little thing written down to read for you.” He says looking at me. “Well you can still tell me. I’m not running away.” I say and give him a smile. He takes a deep breath and starts: I wanna grow old with you, I wanna die lying in your arms I wanna grow old with you, I wanna be looking in your eyes I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do I wanna grow old with you
Things can come and go I know but Baby I believe Something's burning strong between us Makes it clear to me Lyric from Westlife. 'I wanna grow old with you.
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Post by strizzy on Sept 22, 2006 1:23:43 GMT 10
Great update!!!
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Post by Maryna on Sept 23, 2006 2:17:48 GMT 10
update soon!
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 23, 2006 4:45:23 GMT 10
I have a crush on Micha.....such a sweet kid!! The next morning I wake up in Luka’s arms. Micha is already watching the television and I can hear Dani and Sam talking in the room next to ours. I look at my finger and realize that I didn’t had a beautiful dream but it was all true. I wake Luka with a kiss on his cheek and walk away. In the kitchen I make coffee and start to make breakfast for the kids. After that I help Micha with his clothes and check if Luka really got out of bed. When the girls are coming to the kitchen they look at me. “Abby, what’s that ring on your finger?” Asks Dani. “Yeah Abs.” Sam supports her. “Nothing. Just a ring.” I say turning my back to them. “Sure. Looks like more than just a ring to me sis.” Sam says. “Well, think that’s something you both will find out soon enough. Eat your breakfast. I need to get Micha to school.” And I walk away to find Micha. When I come back the house is empty. Its only 8.30 so I have some time left to do my own things before Susan comes. I go to the phone and dial Maggie her number. “This is the answering machine of Maggie and Eric Wyzcenski. At the moment we are not able to come to the phone. Leave a message or your number and we will call you back.” Shit. “Mom its Abby. I just wanted to ask if everything was going fine. So call back please. Love you!” And I hang up the phone. Next thing to do on my list is shopping. But I wait with that until the afternoon. I can do that with Susan. Instead, I take a shower and put on my favorite jeans and t-shirt. I’m making coffee when the doorbell rings. “Hey you.” Susan greets when I open the door. “Hey yourself. Come in. Coffee?” I ask her. “Sure.” When I give her her coffee she notice the ring. “God Abs. That’s what you call a ring! I’ve never seen so much diamante in my life. Its gorgeous! Tell me everything!” So I start telling every bit of yesterday evening. I smile continually. “Congrats Abby! I’m so happy for both of you. What did the kids say?” “We haven’t told them yet. But Sam and Dani asked me about the ring this morning think they know what is going on. We tell them Saturday on Luka’s birthday.” “Sure, those girls are so smart. I hope Dani can cope with it. Will be a bit of a shock for her. But Micha, he will be thrilled I think.” “Yeah. Micha is such a great kid. Dani will understand. It will be hard for her I think but she will manage. The most I’m worried about Sam. She’s not my real daughter, although it feels like that. I just hope she don’t think I will leave her alone.” “Abs, she will be fine.” That afternoon we go shopping and I buy way too much for the kids. For Sam I bought a jeans with patchwork on it and a pink sweater with white text that says: Girl with balls. Just the right one for her. For Dani a white dress with little butterflies on it, she’s still only 12 years old although she can talk like an adult. For Micha I bought a sandy-colored jeans and a navy bleu shirt, he is a wiz kid. I did not buy anything for myself except lunch. When we arrive home I try to remember what I forget. When I enter the living the phone rings. “Abby.” I say. “Hello this is Ms. Whitey from Henry Clay Elementary school is Mr. Kovac available?” Shit, I forgot to get Micha from school. “No he’s at work. But could you tell Micha Kovac that I am on my way down.” “Sure, you can take him of at the admit desk. Bye.” I rush my way out and Susan stays in case the girls come home. “Abby! Second time! Just one more and you need to take me to mc Donald’s!” He laughs when he sees me. “I’m sorry kiddo but I totally forgot! Way too busy with buying you some new clothes.” I pick him up from the floor and hug him. “It’s ok. I love Mc Donald’s.” He grins.
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Post by jadestar on Sept 23, 2006 11:51:55 GMT 10
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Post by strizzy on Sept 24, 2006 2:41:42 GMT 10
Great update!
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 24, 2006 9:53:59 GMT 10
“Abby, trauma rolling in with several kids. They were in an accident on their way to school. Don’t have any specifics yet.” Says Jerry when I walk out of the lounge. It’s almost Christmas and we both have one week of. It is my last shift. I walk out to the ambulance bay and wait for several minutes but no ambulance is pulling up I decide to walk back inside. “Jerry, when will the ambulance arrive?” I ask him. “They just called in to tell they are going to the other one.” He replies. “Fine.” And I take a chart and walk into the waiting room. I help some patients and go back to the lounge to get some coffee and a cigarette. When I pass the admit I see a kid standing in front of it I walk up to her.
“Hey sweety. Who are you looking for?” I say. She turns around and I see the face of my own Katie. “Mommy!!” She screams. I grab her and hold her close to me. In a flash moment I ask how she ended up her. She tells me granny took her and that granny cut her hand, so she ended up her. “Katie do you know where Granny is?” “No mommy but I have you back and that’s better.” She smiles. “Yes sweety but I’m sure Granny is looking for you. Come we will find her.” I take her hand and start walking trough the ER. Finally in curtain 3 I find Richards mother, I hoped for my own but too bad. “Hello, I think you lost something.” I say to her. “Abigail, good to see you dear. We have been looking for you. Ah Katie, granny told you not to walk away.” She takes Katie up to her bed. “Looking for me? Why? What about Richard?” I’m confused. “Richard is a stupid moron Abigail. He can’t take away your daughter. I came her to bring Katie over for Christmas, she needs her mommy.” And Richards mom smiles at me. “Does Richard know this?” I don’t want him back in my life. “Yes, didn’t he call you?” “No.” I sigh not knowing what will happen. “Well you can take Katie home now. I’ll pick her up at the 27th and bring her back to Richard. Abigail just remember that I’m not like my son.” She says before Dr. Carter takes her away for stitches.
“Luka, I think we have a slight problem.” I say when I find him. “Why?” “Well…its Katie. Richard mom brought her up here and she’s going to spend Christmas. But we don’t have enough room!” “We could go to your apartment. It’s bigger.” “We could. But what about tomorrow. We told the kids we would take them out for dinner. And we would tell them about the marriage.” Although I’m happy with Katie having around me with Christmas I’m rather freaked out. “Abby it will be fine. We take Katie out to. Or you could ask Susan.” “No I’m not putting Katie with Susan. She’s going with us.” I say and walk over to him. “Come her hun. It will be all right. Don’t worry.” And he holds me close.
I ended my shift 15 minutes too early but I don’t care at this point. In the car Katie is asking me all these questions about the hospital, my house, friends and if they cell Oreo’s around here. So first stop is the store to buy her Oreo’s. From the moment she started eating regular food she loved Oreo and eats them as breakfast, lunch and dinner if you let her. “One at the time Katie. It’s candy no meal.” I tell her. “Ah mommy please just 2!” She begs. “Fine but not more than 2.” And I hand her over the package of Oreo. “Mommy why are we at a school?” She asks when we pull up in front of Micha’s school. I’m late again, just 5 minutes but I already can see him smiling. “We need to up pick the son of mommy’s boyfriend sweety.” I say when I get her out of the car. “Love is in your eyes. What’s his name?” She sings. “The sons name is Micha and his dads name is Luka.” “Funny names mommy.” She says when I open the door. Micha is already waiting at admit. His smile is priceless he knows what will happen in a few minutes. “Three times Abby!! You need too take me to Mc Donald’s! Yes!” He says when he’s running towards me. I grab him in my arms and hug him for a while. “Yes kiddo were going to Mc Donald’s. Micha, this my daughter Katie. Katie this is Micha.” I say when I put Micha down. “Hello.” They both say before they shake hands and ran away to the door.
At Mc Donald’s Micha and Katie have so much fun together that I’m not worried about them sharing a bedroom. “Katie, Micha I’m leaving right now so get your butts in the car.” I yell for the second time. “Mommy just a few minutes!” “No come down know, both of you.” Micha is out first he knows the drill. When I finally have Katie out they walk over to the car hands folded. So cute.
Finally at Luka’s apartment the girls are already at home watching MTV and singing along with it. “Girls, music down please we need to talk.” I say when I close the door. They both follow me to the kitchen. “Abby, who’s that little girl with Micha?” Dani asks when she sees her. “That’s what I wanted to talk about. That girl is my daughter Katie. She’s going to spend Christmas with us. “Cool! I’m an aunt!” Sam says. “She’s cute Abby! She looks so much like you.” Dani says when Katie comes in the kitchen. “Mommy, who are they?” “This is Sam your aunt. And this is Dani, Micha’s sister.” I tell her. “Hello I’m Katie. You look like granny Maggie.” She says to Sam. “Thanks. And you look like your mom a lot!”
It only cost us 2 hours to leave Luka’s apartment and to pull in to my apartment. Micha and Katie are sleeping and Sam and Dani are watching a movie in their room. “Luka, I love you. I really don’t how I manage to live without you for all these years.” I say when we are both hanging on the couch. “I love you too. I’m so tired! And happy for you that you have your daughter with you with Christmas. She’s a sweet girl.” I look into his eyes and we kiss. “Lets go to bed. Long day tomorrow.” I yawn. I’m completely gone when my head reach the pillow.
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