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Post by steffi1986 on Sept 28, 2006 1:46:32 GMT 10
wow this is as great as usual please update again soon
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 28, 2006 6:17:54 GMT 10
Some people may like it some not. But just remember that it always will get better. I'm still working on it....
Right here a bit Sam/Susan POV.
Susan; She’s my best friend’s sister and a great person. She had a hard youth. Grew up in foster care and had several families to deal with. Never knew she had a real mom. At last a sister and brother. She found out when she turned 18. She had a change to contact her biological mother. She did and she visited her and found out she had also a sister beside a brother. They both had a hard youth. Abby grew up with a bipolar mom and a younger brother. Then she married the wrong man.
But with Sam I have other feelings I never had them before. It’s new but I like it. I’m really glad I got a change to know Sam. She’s so easy going. Any time I’m around her I feel these goose bumps coming up. When she laughs I can’t help laughing to. Don’t get me wrong I truly love Abby but her sister is the one I love in a slight different way.
Yesterday she told me she felt something for me. I already knew it, at least I thought I knew. Every time we see each other we are touching and hugging a lot. When she told me about her feelings I told her I had the same. She thinks I’m too old. I’m not. I just turned 29 and she’s almost 21! 8 Years is not much. But what will Abby think of this? I think she will be happy but also disappointed in a way. I know she wants us both to be happy.
All I wanna do right now is go to Sam and kiss her very long. Touch her body. Finding my way with Sam. Comfort her and let her feel my love.
Sam;
She’s my sisters best friend. She has been there for my sister and me when we had a hard time. If she wasn’t there I never would have known my sister. It’s all about her. Susan. The woman I’ve feelings for. Deep feelings. She listened to my stories about my past. I cried on her shoulder when I wasn’t doing fine. That was something I couldn’t share with Abby. Although I know she would listen too and let me cry on her shoulder but I couldn’t tell her how much it hurt me that she choose Luka instead of me when Richard showed up. Tiny things she shared with Luka and not with me, didn’t even let me apart of it, which hurts so badly! Even the whole Dani thing….the didn’t came to me. She did it all on her own. And right now, I told her about my feelings and I still feel a space between us. I know that’s not her intention but it’s there. She doesn’t know I feel that way and I can’t tell her cause I don’t want to give her pain. She had enough.
Last night I told Susan on MSN that I felt something for her. She told me she felt the same thing. She told me about her goose bumps when she saw me and how warm she gets when I have my head resting on her lap. I felt that too. But I think she’s a bit too old. Abby said she wasn’t and Susan said the same thing. I still don’t know.
I want to be with her. Hold her tight. Kiss her, let her show my body. Tenderly touch her. Just show her how much I love her.
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Post by maggie on Sept 28, 2006 6:31:31 GMT 10
whoa, unexpected but i like it. very nice twist...props.
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Post by *Natalie* on Sept 28, 2006 7:32:42 GMT 10
Just read everything and loving this... like the twist with susan and sam. Update soon natalie x
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Post by ERFanRach on Sept 28, 2006 8:42:32 GMT 10
Update soon
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 28, 2006 23:18:05 GMT 10
I don't know when I'm able to update again cause I'm really busy with the story-line of the childerens book. I'm sorry!!!
Goodmorning…it’s 6 o’clock in the morning when my alarm clock goes off. I mummer a little and let go of Luka. In the kitchen, I make a coffee and some breakfast. I notice how quite it is, the kids are still sleeping. They will wake up when I’m already at work.
I decide to take the El cause Luka will need the car to bring Katie to the airport. f**k, she’s leaving today and I’m not there to say goodbye. Sam is going with her and she will visit Maggie and Eric. I don’t know what’s wrong with her. She’s been acting a little strange towards me. I need to talk with her when she’s back next week.
I work my butt of in the ER. The ambulances seem to get coming. “Jerry, why does it look all the ambulances are coming to us?” I ask him when I go on a coffee break. “Oh you didn’t hear. Mercy closed the ER at 1 January. They had some financial problems.” He tells me with his mouth full with donut. “Great. I’m out for a coffee.” I say and walk away. “Hey Abby!” It’s Neela. “Hey you. How was your vacation in England?” “Fine. How are thinks with Luka and you?” “Good. He proposed.” I smile. “Congrats Abby!” And she kisses me. “I need to go back…it’s busy.” “I walk with you my shift starts in a few minutes. Yeah I heard Mercy closed down. That’s a pity.” The rest of my shift I don’t even find the time to have a proper lunch so I crab a bag of M&M’s and a soda. When I’m done with a kid who was involved in a shooting I look at the clock to pronounce him. It’s 2.30. Katie should have been landed by now. Both Katie and Sam gone.
The house is empty when I get in. No voices of Sam and Dani. No laughs from Katie and Micha. No Luka in the kitchen preparing dinner. I take of my coat and wonder around for a while. I decide to take a bath and order a pizza. I don’t have any idea how late Luka gets back.
He’s not back yet and it’s already 10. I’m worried now. I call the hospital but they didn’t see him nor his kids. I call his apartment but I get the answering machine. Last try is his cell-phone. “Luka.” Thank god he’s a life! “Luka where the hell are you? I’m worried.” I say. “Calm down Abs. Were at the ice-rink. I took Dani and Micha out today. It’s their last day free. We were just on our way home.” I could shoot him right now. “I hoped you were home when I got back from work. Did you heard something of Sam?” “I’m sorry hun. No, check the answering machine. Will be home in half an hour. I love you.” “Yeah. Bet you do.” And I hang up. As Luka said I check the answering machine and find 2 messages, one from Susan asking for me and one from Sam to let us know they had a good flight and that she was at Maggie’s. I dial Maggie’s number but they don’t answer. I don’t call Susan knowing she has a night shift.
A half hour past by and I’m feeling too tired to wait a minute longer. In the bath room I brush my teeth and look in the mirror. ‘Abby where are you?’ I ask myself. In the bed room I see a picture of Sam and me. I hold it in my hand touching her face, wishing she were here. Although I didn’t told her I would miss her, I do. With her picture in my hand, I fall a sleep. Somewhere I hear Dani talking and a door closing. I pretend as I’m sleeping. I feel Luka getting in bed, his hands on my hips. I turn around and move closer to him. “Just hold me.” I whisper.
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Post by lubylover08 on Sept 28, 2006 23:23:57 GMT 10
LOVE IT!
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Post by jadestar on Sept 29, 2006 3:18:13 GMT 10
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Post by ERFanRach on Sept 29, 2006 5:37:37 GMT 10
Great update
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Post by steffi1986 on Sept 29, 2006 6:02:17 GMT 10
this was really great please update if you have time
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 29, 2006 6:03:21 GMT 10
I'm a bit emotional at the moment so the fic will get something of that to.....
Luka POV.
I fell in love with her the first time I saw her. When she smiles, she’s like a diamante that glitters in the light. When she talks there are magical words coming out of her mouth. When she runs I laugh, she just can’t run properly.
It came without warning A love like I ain't ever felt before She's like my destiny calling And she's laying there all naked on the floor And suddenly, out of the blue she's singing
I know she has been hurt before. And it wont be easy to help her heal that wound. I’m not trying to fix her I just want her to be pure. She has her day’s with lots of laughs but also day’s she cries forever. I need to feel that pain she has, otherwise I will never understand. Talking is no way to get it, she shot it out of us. She feels like she’s bothering me. But deep down she knows she doesn’t. Oh, baby, let my lovin' ease your pain Bring your burnin' skin to my river once again I'll give you life Oh, baby, let my lovin' ease your pain tonight
My heart is one with hers. I feel her deep inside me. She’s just way to good for this world. She’s like angel. I know she doesn’t think that of her self. She has a low self-esteem. Every night I watch her sleeping, trying to let the pain find his way. I reach out my hand every time she falls. But when I’m close enough she rejects it with a laugh.
She came without warning Like an angel come from Heaven in the night The kiss makes me tremble So she pulls me close and she holds me oh so tight.
She’s strong when she needs to and weak when she’s alone. I know she has this fight going on her mind. I want to help her fight that battle. She’s my true love. My soulmate. My world. My everything. I can lose my house, car, job, clothes, money causse all I need is her.
darling, I believe, sometimes it's hard to breathe.
Lyrics from Live.
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Post by strizzy on Sept 29, 2006 7:11:01 GMT 10
Love it! The Susan/Sam thing was completely unexpected though
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Post by bostongirl on Sept 29, 2006 19:58:12 GMT 10
I hit the snooze button for the sixth time this morning and still feel Luka next to me. “Luka get out! You have to go to work!” I say to him. It doesn’t work he’s still not moving. My last option is tickle him. I start in his waist slowly up to his stomach. He smiles and I know he’s awake. “ Morning. You only have 20 minutes left to get in time.” I say when he’s opening his eyes. “I don’t want to leave you. It’s so nice and warm in here. Outside it’s freezing cold.” He says when he cuddles me. “Wish you could stay but you need to go. And I need to get the kids ready for school.” I tell him when his trying to kiss me. “Luka, your even worser than Dani! Get out now!” I say trying not to laugh. “Right, but first this.” His fingers trembled my cheeck bown and his eyes were looking deep in mines. He came closer and I felt his lips touching mine. He moved his hand up in my neck to give my neck something to rest on. His other hand was on my tigh caressing it soflty. He knows how to do this so well. He makes me feel weak and warm. The past couple of times he made his move Micha or Katie intrupted us. But now it is not even 6 yet and Micha will not wake before 7.
The kiss was perfect, it’s that kiss that makes you feel like wanting more. But he decided he really needs to hit the shower and go to work. He knows I’ll be waiting for him tonight. He knows how he needs to tease me. He has done it several times before but there was always something that came up and we didn’t get a hold of each other. But I will make sure the kids are not at home tonight. I need it.
I’m lying there complete out of order when I hear Micha going down. I need to get out so I grab a shower to wake myself. “Abby, I’ve a problem.” Micha says when I walk into the living. “What’s wrong?” I ask him while I caress his hair. “Well I told my teacher dad would love to talk on parents-work day but I totally forgot he needs to work.” He’s almost crying now. “Good. I’ll talk. Cause that’s what your willing to ask isn’t?” “Uhm. Yeah. Thanks Abby.” And his tears are gone and a smile comes up to his face. “Morning Dani.” I say when Dani walks in. “Abby. Can we talk?” “Right now? Can’t it wait till afternoon?” I ask looking at the clock. “No.” “Ok. In the kitchen then.”
Dani had her first period this morning. Little girls grew fast. It’s a pitty she can’t share this with her mom. Just like she won’t share her marriage, first child and so much more stuff with her mom. I know how hard it is.
After I dropped Micha of at school I drive to County to check my schedule for the next month. Luka wants to go for a holiday in February so we both asked for one week off. “Morning Kerry.” I say when I walk into the lounge. “You’re not on for today Abby.” She replies. “I know. I just came in to check my schedule for next month.” “Yeah I wanted to talk about it with you. You can’t have both one week off at the same time. With Mercy closing down we need all the doctors we can get. I’m sorry.” “Great.” It’s the only thing I can say. “But you could get 2 day’s off together.” “Yeah well we were planning a holiday with his kids. But thanks for looking in for it Kerry.” I say and walk away.
“Neela glad to bump into you.” I say when I notice Neela is lurking at the admitt. “You’re coming to rescue me?” “No not really. I wanted to ask if you would baby-sit Micha and Dani tonight.” “Sure. I’ll pick them up after my shift ended. I’m off at 4.” “Thank you so much! Don’t tell Luka.” “Your more than welcome. I won’t.” “I’ll catch you at 4. Bye!” “Bye Abby.” And just when the doors shut behind me I hear Luka asking ‘what was Abby doing here? Everything allright?’ I smile.
I hear his key in the door. I jump of the couch and almost flu upstairs. Just in time to get out of my jeans and get into my dressing-gown. Flying down and hit the couch just as he opens the door. “Hey.” I smile. Can’t so more cause I’m behind my breath. “Hey. Did you run a marathon or so?” He smiles and walks over to me. I don’t reply to his comment. I take his hand and hold it for a while. I see him searching with his eyes. “Where are Micha and Dani? You didn’t forgot him again I hope.” “Nah. They’re with Neela.” I laugh. “With Neela? Why?” “Cause I wanted some time with you alone.” “Ah. Right. I’m hungry what do we have for dinner?” He walks into the kitchen and I shake my head. You stupid idiot who things of eating when I’m hungry for your love. “Abby? You didn’t cook?” He frowns his eyebrows. “No.” “And I assume you’re not taking me out for dinner, or is a dressing-gown fashion?” “Luka!” “Abby?” And I see he knows what I’m up too. Thank god!
“Hm that was so. So good.” He says when I rest my head on his chest. “Yeah.” I’m out complete out. “When is Neela brinning the kids back?” “Not. They are spending the night and Neela drops them of at school in the morning.” “Your smart.” I feel a kiss on my fore-head and I close my eyes with that. “Hun. I love you. Your my world.” I nod. “Same to you Luka. Same to you.” And he takes me closer in his arms.
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Post by steffi1986 on Sept 29, 2006 23:46:13 GMT 10
wow this was again really great please update soon
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Post by LoveLuka on Sept 29, 2006 23:50:21 GMT 10
love it
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