Trying To Find My Mr.Right. (Updated 28/6-08)

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PART ONE



I've tried to find love, I truly, truly have, but yet, I haven't succeeded. I've had a few boyfriends, which I've loved, but none that I really felt like they were the one. I've been married too, well, to a guy who I thought was the one. Richard Lockhart, aka. total slime-ass-bag. I thought I loved him, and I guess he thought he loved me, but as I said, we weren't meant to be.
Then there was Luka. Luka Kovac. An amazing guy that I loved. Really loved. We had our ups and downs, and then, he told me he was done... That Carter, and let me quote, "could have me". I get it. He was frustrated of the fact that I was friends with the guy who had a crush on me, and that was all Carter had on me, a crush. He wasn't in love, and that showed. 'Cause later on, I became and "item" with Carter. John Carter. Didn't REALLY love him, it was more of a... Fling. Well, not a fling, but I knew that he deep inside didn't love me, c'mon, HOW COULD? It's me, miss. non-lovable.

I really do try do look for "Mr.Right", but it's hard when you have had your heart broken so many times, it truly is.
I'm Abby Lockhart, and I just can't seem to find love....

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"Frank, have you gotten the result of the urine-test in 2?"
"Does it look like I care?" Frank walks away and eats on his donut, like he usually do.
"Thanks for the help.. Not.." I mutter that last part, and find my patients test-result in the fax. I look at it, and not really where I'm going so I accidentally bump into Luka.
"Oh, sorry.. I wasn't really looking.." I said and looked at him. He seemed down.
"Ah, it's okay.." He smiled, but he still had that, that.. Sad look in his eyes.
"Are you sure? You seem a bit down.."
"Nah, I'm just a bit tired.."
"Oh, okay.. See you later" I walked away to my patient and told her about her results. Neela, my friend, had a patient in the same room, that was very upset.
"Do you want me to help you Neela?" I came over to her curtain and looked at her.
"Yeah, well.. Actually, no.. "
"Okay, maybe you should call down psych on that guy..
"Psych? What the....." said the guy.
"Then be a bit nice, " I said and looked at him. "Please, we are only trying to help you"
"Well, I want an American doctor!"
"Aah, don't be such a jerk! But if you REALLY want an American doctor, I'm here for you.."
"You are so not American"
"The hell I am.."
"I think I changed my mind.."
"Good, now, be nice to Dr.Rasgotra, or I will come.." I smiled to Neela before I walked off to one of the traumas.
"How long have you guys been in here?"
"1 hour and 45 minutes.. how come?"
"Cause, I think I just heard something about a mass casualty incident, so they might need the room, so pack up Pratt."
"I can't move him at the moment."
"Of course you can, he has a pulse, right?"
"Yeah, but."
"And his pressure is good?"
"Yes, but.."
"Then move him.." I walked away and once again, bump into Luka.
"Sorry, again.."
"Ahh, no problem.."
"Is there a mass-casualty incident coming in?"
"Yes, I was just coming to inform them.."
"been there, done that,"
"Good." He smiled.. "But how did you know..??"
"Good hearing I guess, " I smile and me and Luka walked together to the ambulance bay.
"Follow me Abby," luka said and put his glowes on. I did the same and followed him.
"And what do we got here..?"
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"Great work in there Abby.." Luka said and took of his glowes.
"Aw, thanks.." I smiled and did the same.
"Good catch on the cut.."
"Thanks." I looked at him. "Are you sure you are okay?"
"What? Yes. Abby, please.."
"Luka, i know you.. You just seem a bit down, that's all.."
"Yeah, well, to tell you the truth, so, maybe I'm a bit down"
"Okay, about what?"
Morris comes running at the second that Luka opens his mouth.
"Abby, Luka, we need you"
"And why?"
"I don't know, Weaver told me to get you.." He runs of again.
"I guess we need to go."
"I guess so" I smile and walk off with Luka to meet Weaver.

[candya6446]

It is a great start

Why the hell Morris lways disturb others

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[manu]

I really like the start! Can't wait to read more

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PART TWO


I walk out to the ambulance bay after my long, very long shift and I spot luka sitting at one of the benches, I walk up to him and says, "hello"
"Oh, hi, are you off?"
"Yeah. Actually, for half an hour ago, but, you know, it's the ER."
He smiles, "Yeah."
"So, tough shift for you?"
"Nah, not tougher than usual."
"Okay.." I look away, and then look back. "Well, I guess I'll see you later."
"Yeah, bye Abby."
"Bye Luka" I walk away with a smile on my face, I don't know why, but I had this weird feeling, a happy-feeling, I just felt like smiling.
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Aah, another day, another shift, I get ready and I leave for work, actually, in good time. To my suprise, I haven't missed the EL I'm supposed to take every morning, but keep missing because I'm late with something. Well, that's good.
I come to the ER, and it's quiet.
"Why is it so quiet?"I look at Neela.
"I don't know, maybe because it's REALLY cold outside?"
"What no? When did you get here?"
"Just minute ago.." She walks off.
"Oh, okay.." I look at her as she walks away and then I turn around to look at the board.
"Isn't Kovac on today?"
"I don't know, and I really couldn't careless," Frank, as usual, gives a snappy line and walks away.
"Thanks for the help, NOT." I walk in to the lounge, aah, Luka.
"Hey Luka," I smile and open my locker.
"Good morning Abby."
"Did you sleep well?"
"Nah not really.."
"Oh, okay, what's her name?" I smile and look at him.
"What?"
"It's a joke Luka, a joke.." I smile and look back into my locker, same weird feeling as yesterday, what the f... was this about?
"Oh, okay.." He stands up and looks at me.
"What?" I look at him,
"Oh, nothing..." He just smiles and walks to the door.
"Have a nice shift then, " I look back into my locker to find my stethoscope, I took it out and hung it around my neck, when I had closed my locker, Luka was gone, and same was the feeling. Could I have feelings for Luka? LUKA? no, no, this couldn't be happening.

I walk up to Neela and say,
"I need to talk to you.."
"Uhm? Why?"
"Neela.."
"Oh, okay, what is it?"
"I think I might... I think I might have a crush on Luka."
"You think?"
"Yeah, I think.. It's not for sure, but everytime I see him, I get this feeling, this.. happy kind of feeling, like I just want to smile and kiss him."
"You have a crush on him, "
"And is it wrong for me to have a crush on him?"
"No, you guys have been dating and you work together, hell, I know I've had a crush on Luka."
"What, you have?"
"Yeah. Well, I just thought he was REALLY hot, which he is.. You gotta admitt.."
"Oh, yeah, he's smoking,.." I smile. "Good. i just needed to talk to somebody about this... I was just feeling like AAH about this feeling."
"Well, I say, Go for it.. I think he likes you."
"Yeah. Maybe he does." I walk off. "Thanks Neela!"
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Finally. My shift had ended, and as last night, I found Luka on one of the benches.
"Again?"
"What?"
"You are sitting here like, every night."
"No, I'm not."
"Yes you are,"
"No"
"I'm not gonna argue about it, but you are.. And you know I'm right, " I smile. "So, Luka, there is something I need to talk to you about."
"Oh, okay, what?"
I sit down next to him, "Well... Uhm.. I don't know how to put this but, Uhm.. I kinda like you, you know, in the love way.. Well, I wouldn't call it love, I would call it like. Not love. Like. And.."
"What?"
"Uhm.. I was just wondering if you were feeling the same. Cause if you're not, I'll stop feeling this, "
"Abby.. You know I've been feeling the same for I while."
"You have...." He interuppted me with a kiss, even though i don't like being interuppted, if I have to choose, this is my favorite way.
"Luka... Are you sure?"
"Yeah, I'm sure"

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part THREE


I woke up next morning in Lukas arms. Ahh. Same feeling again when I turned around and looked at him, and I smiled. Smiled, smiled, smiled... Am I this goofy? I try to get out of the bed without waking him up, but no, my luck makes me stumble and hit the floor, and it pretty much could wake up Neela, across the city...
"Hey" He looks at me with a big smile.
"Hello" I grab the closest towel and put it around me, so I won't be naked, common sense.
"Did you sleep well?"
"Haha, you know I did," I walk around to the other side to look for my clothes, "Where are my clothes?"
"They are... Uhm, somewhere.." Luka starts looking in the bed, "Well, here's your panties," He throws them to me, and duh, I catch them.
"Aw, thanks.." I smile like a little girl.
"Want me to make you some breakfast?" He goes up from bed, and in to the kitchen.
"Uhm, yeah, why not.."
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We get to work together and we talk on the way. We finally get to work and I say to him,
"Maybe we shouldn't tell anybody about this, well, just until we know it's gonna hold for awhile.."
"Yeah, okay, sure."
"Good." I smile and walk away. "It needs to look like we aren't coming here together!" I walk away and find Neela who is also walking to the doors.
"Good morning Neela."
"Good morning Abby... What? You have the same clothes as yesterday.."
"Yeah, I know.."
"Who did you sleep with? Not some guy from Ike's?"
"What? NO. Neela, you are supposed to KNOW me, "
"Ooh.. Luka?"
"What? Sssh.. We agreed to not say it to anybody."
"Well, he gotta know that when you say that, you'll tell me anyway."
"Yeah, " Now we have reached the lounge. "But PLEASE don't tell anyone."
"And you are supposed to know me.. Of course I won't!"
"Good," I smile to her and open up my locker.
"So, what? You and Luka are an "item" now?" Neela asks.
"Yeah. I guess. But it's a secret until we know it it's gonna hold for awhile atleast."
"Yeah, I'll keep it," Neela smiles to me and .. yes, the sound of her pager. "Gotta run, my patient from last night is crashing."
"Okay, see you later," I close my locker at the moment that Luka walks in.
"Hey Abby,"
"Hey Kovac"
I just smile and walks up to the door, "Well, Uhm, Have a nice shift, "
"Yeah. I'll see you later.."
"Yeah, " I walk out and goes over too the board and look at it, then, Weaver comes up to me.
"Abby?"
"Yeah?" I turn around, a bit suprised.
"There's a patient that says she wants dr.Lockhart, apperently you have taken care of her before."
"Ms.Steinman?" I look at the chart. "Ooh.. Yeah. I have, but PLEASE, can you take her? I'm gonna jump on the incoming trauma."
"How did you know?"
"Good hearing I guess," I walk away with a smile on my face and when I have gotten out to the ambulance bay a really icy wind hits me, and I get chills all over.
"Hello, dr. Lockhart," Morris walks up to me and smiles, like the dork that Morris is.
"Hey Morris."
"Waiting on the incoming trauma?"
"Yup."
"Did they page you?"
"Good hearing,"
"Good hearing? I thought you had bad hearing, cause you didn't hear me calling for you yesterday.."
"That dosen't mean I hear everything, just the things I want to hear, Morris. "
"Oh, yeah.. Right. What?"
"Sorry if I've bursted the bubble." I walk up to the ambulance and knock on it's door.

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After my shift had ended, I found luka out on the same bench as last night, I walk over and say, "Hey"
"Oh, hey Abby."
"Great night, huh?"
"Yeah, "
"So, I've been thinking, and maybe.. Uhm, we shouldn't keep this a secret, 'cause well.. I know you don't want to.. I can see it in your eyes, so, if it's okay with you, I would like to un-secret us."
"Yeah. Sure." He smiles, gets up and takes my hand. "Let's get something to eat."
"Yeah."

Over at the ambulance bay, Sam & Morris are seeing this whole thing.
"Are they a couple?" Morris looks at us, walking away, like in a sweet, romantic movie ending.
"I guess so,"
"And you don't care? Aren't you like, still in love with Luka?"
"What? No. I was the one who put a stop to what we had,"
"But wasn't that like, a week ago?"
"2 months ago Morris. And why do you care?"
"I care because.. I might hurt the staff! Luka is sleeping with everybody,"
"No, he's not, but maybe, just maybe, You have a crush on Abby."
"Yeah, RIGHT, Sam, have you been stealing stuff from the lock-up or something?"
"You are such a bitch Morris."
"That wasn't very nice!"

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PART four







I stood at the board when Morris came up to me.
"Abby? There's something I need to talk to you about.."
"Oh.. ? What?" I turned around and looked at him.
"Are you sure that you and Luka are gonna last?"
"Morris, I don't think that anyone can be sure about that.. But why do you care?"
"'Cause, as an attending here at County General, I feel that all these couples between staff members,"
"Oh, please Morris. Haven't you slept with Albright?"
"Yeah, well.. She's not a staffmember of the ER."
"Oh, come on Morris. Back off."
"Abby.."
"Sam has already told me that you have a crush on me."
"What? I'm gonna.." He walks away. "SAM!"
Luka comes and stands next to me. "Haha."
"He's such a freak."
"Yeah."
"Yeah," I smile to him and walk away. That thing that Morris told me, "are you sure that luka and you are gonna last?" - really spooked me out. What if this one was just gonna be another failure.


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After my shift, I walked out to the ambulance bay, I found Luka on the same bench as usual, I walked up to him.
"Hey"
"Hey,"
"Luka.."
"What?"
"Uhm, nothing.. Let's go home, "
"Okay."

AT LUKAS APARTMENT.

"Are you cooking?" I asked when I came down from upstairs.
"Yeah."
"Okay... Why?"
"Cause I felt like it."
"Okay.. " I thought it was a bit weird that he cooked, but sweet anyway. "What is it?"
"A croatian thing."
"Oh, okay.. "
"Why do you sound so skeptical?"
"Do I? I don't mean too."
"Okay."
"Luka.."
"What?"
"Oh, nothing."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah. Well, maybe. I'll talk to you about it later."
"Okay. If that's what you want."
"Morris really spooked me out."
"Why?"
"Well, you know.. The whole speech about that it might affect the staff if we break up again, what if we do?"
"Well.. Maybe we don't."
"Are you that sure already? Now that really spooks me out."
"Yeah, I know.. But Abby, you are always a bit scared when it comes to that kind of stuff."
"Yeah, well.. Maybe I am. "
"Maybe?"
"Okay, I AM. But, well.. He just spooked me out, and now you are spooking me out."
"Abby.."
"Okay, okay, I'll calm down!" I sit down at the table. "It's just... weird."
"Weird?"
"Yeah, well.. It's not like I thought that we would EVER get together again after our breakup."
"You didn't?"
"Did you? Luka..."
"Yeah. Well, I wasn't sure. But I knew that I never stopped loving you.."
"Aaw, that's so cute."
He just smiles and continues with his cooking.
"Let's say, that if we break up again, will you still love me then? and still think that we will get back together a third time?"
"Maybe. It depends on WHY we break up. Last time, everything was such a mess. We weren't ready for each other yet. We needed to go through some stuff first."
"Oh, okay.. That's totally deep of you.. Have you gotten religious again?"
"No. I was just thinking for myself the other night when I couldn't sleep cause you were talking in your sleep... and."
"I do not talk in my sleep. "
"Yes, you do."
"No, i don't. But you snore like an elephant."
"No, I don't."
"Yes, you do."
"But, ANYWAYS, I just thought about us, so, yeah.."
"Okay.." I look at him. "But it's still totally deep."
"Thanks."
"And kinda weird."
"Stop it."
"Okay." I laugh just a little and thinks about something. "Luka, there is something else.. But, well.. no, no, there isn't."
"Okay."
"Yeah. yeah, there's nothing, it's just me, acting weird,"
"Okay." He takes off the saucepan off the stove and takes it to the table. "Dinner's ready."
"Yay." I look down in the saucepan. "It looks like... " Figures out a lie. "A wonderful, wonderful meal."
"Thanks, i personally love this."
"Oh, okay... "

[candya6446]

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THANKS.

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PART five

(this takes place about a month after the last part)

I walked towards the doors to the very familiar ER meanwhile, and then I'm greeted by Neela.
"So, how did you sleep?" she askes and drinks her coffee meanwhile we walk together to the lounge.
"Ah, pretty good.."
"For me, it was pretty impossible.."
"Why?"
"I don't know why, that's the weird thing.."
"Okay," I say and open up my locker, "Maybe you have insomnia".
"Maybe,"
"And maybe you shouldn't drink coffee?"
"It's de-caf."
"Okay, then.." I say and close my locker.
"How's Luka? I haven't seen him in awhile?"
"Maybe you have like missed him around here,"
"Yeah, well?"
"He's fine, he's great, everything is great"
"Really? No drama?"
"No." I look at her. "What are you saying?"
"Well, let's be honest, there's always something going on in your life.."
"Maybe it has stopped, you know, stopped going on"
"Yeah, well gotta go, see you around!" says Neela and walks away.
"Abby!" yells Morris and approces me.
"What now Morris? Are you gonna spook me out again, cause if you are, i'm gonna slaughter you.."
"Nono, not at all.. There are rumours that you are pregnant.. Are they true?"
"What? Was it a mental-patient that told you that or something? Think about it.. Me pregnant? Not really"
"Well, you have someone to have a baby with, cause, well, of course you have sex with Luka.. "
"How do you know that?"
"So you don't?"
"That's really not of your business Morris"
"No, of course not" He says. "Just say if it's wrong or not"
"It's wrong, " I say and walk away towards a patient. Meanwhiöe I walk i think about, geez, I might actually be pregnant with Luka.. Or... Well, Yes. Or No. Well, if I am, we'll just take it then,

When I get home after my shift I find a note on the fridge from Luka, it says; Left for work before you made it home, see you later... Luka. Aw, so cute. I open up the fridge and take out a soda and then I sit down on the couch. Time to think once again, well.. About that morris said, it's so weird, I mght be pregnant at this moment, and I don't even know about it.. Maybe I should run down to the drugstore and buy a test.. Yeha, That's what I'll do.

A few minutes later I've bought a pregnancy test, I take and wait the time that you are supposed to.. Then.. Okay, that's an answer alright.. Eeh.. Okay. I'm gonna talk to Luka about it in the morning..





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I know, it's a bit shorter, but I'll update more later,