Post by lubbybaby on Aug 1, 2006 5:32:33 GMT 10
NEW Chap's up
Confessions:
Abby laid awake in bed studying his face, running a finger through the lines on his face. A big par o her prayed this baby would look like him, have all those lines and another part prayed it didn’t have his nose. But than again it would look weird.
The more she looked at him the more she felt she needed to tell him the truth.
She sighed loudly knowing it was time. There would be no running away, she couldn’t keep this from him, not anymore, it was eating away of her and she knew if she ignored it, it would get worse and she would feel horrible and the next things she knew they could turn out to be exactly like they were before.
“Luka !” a finger poked his arm. He mumbled.
“Luka” She could hear him sigh. “Yes”
“I need to tell you something”
Luka sighed again. “5:00am” was she ever going to sleep tonight? “Does this have to be now?”
“It has to be now”
“Abby, it’s five am, please go to sleep? We’ll talk in two hours”
“Luka, please”
He sighed again and turned around. “God, I hope we don’t have a girl”
“Luka, I didn’t say this before, because I didn’t want to worry you, I just, I knew… … It’s just… …”
“Abby, what?” He smiled.
“I almost got an abortion”
Luka stared at her for a minute “Why?” He asked clearing his throat.
“I was confused… … … I … … … ok, years ago, when I was still married, I got pregnant and I didn’t even hesitated. I thought the baby would be bipolar and I thought I couldn’t be a good mother and I knew Richard would be a horrible father and I just did it. I didn’t give it much thought and than… … well one day Carter asked me about kids and I told him I didn’t even consider and would never consider it”
Luka studied her as she spoke, listening to her every word, paying careful attention to her reactions, her words.
Her eyes had filled with tears and he knew she was petrified of his reaction. He smiled at that taking a hold of her hand.
“What made you change your mind?”
She looked straight into his eyes and saw the answer lingering deep within that deep blue gaze. “You, us”
Luka smiled placing a kiss on her forehead “Than, you wouldn’t do it anyway”
Abby smiled, she had been so scared of his reaction, so petrified that he would flip, be mad at her that she never even considered that he would know the truth even before her.
“Just next time, let me in on it. I’ll back you up, whatever decision you make, but talk to me”
Abby nodded resting her head on his chest and falling asleep within seconds.
Abby sighed before opening the ER doors. She knew by now, the entire staff knew about her pregnancy and today would be a long day. Not to mention that Sam and Carter were both in this shift.
She looked beside her, Luka felt all high and mighty, she rolled her eyes, yeah, everyone would pat him on the back, say things like “Way to go” or “you work fast” or any other crap that would make him feel even more manly, as for her, she would have to deal with Sam staring weirdly at her, Carter asking questions, Susan asking questions, Weaver questioning how long she would work, all the consequences that came with it.
“Are you coming?” Luka looked back at her holding the doors opened for her.
She followed him in and suddenly felt all eyes on them.
“Hey, Dr Kovac, congratulations” Ray pat him on the back and Abby rolled her eyes, as expected.
While the men started to congratulate Luka and do their mainly stupid jokes, Abby took the opportunity to go straight to the lounge.
“Hey” Carter faked a smile as she walked in.
Abby wished she hadn’t come in today. “Hey”
“So, you’re going be a mom” He still faked that stupid smile.
“Yup. That’s pretty much the consequence of getting pregnant” She smiled.
Carter suddenly turned serious. “I just always thought you wouldn’t have kids or didn’t want kids anyway; at least hat’s what you always told me” He seemed both angry and hurt.
Abby sighed; yeah it would be a long day.
“I changed. The kidnapping made me think about a lot of things and forced me to change” She announced raising an eyebrow at him and storming out.
“Abby, MVA in 5, four teenagers” Chuny called out.
Soon Abby was racing back pushing a gurney with a 17 year old screaming in pain.
Carter followed along.
“I just don’t get it. If someone is so sure about not wanting to do something how can they so easily change their minds?” He asked beginning to work on the kid as well.
“Chuny can ask Luka to get in here, tell him Carter’s not handling it.”
Chuny looked at Abby than at Carter.
“I’m handling it perfectly well, you’re the one who seems to not know how to handle your decisions.”
“You know what. Handle it alone” Abby barked storming out of the room and walking into the trauma with Luka.
“Abby? I thought Carter needed help!”
“He doesn’t. I though there were four teenagers”
“The fourth on seems to be doing well, sitting behind curtain 3”
“Well, I’ll handle him”
Luka stared at her, studying her as she left and signaled for Haley to open the door that separated him and Carter.
“Carter, what happened?”
Carter sighed trying o focus attention on the kid and tan looking at Chuny as if telling her “If you open your mouth… … …”
“Nothing. Mood swings I’m guessing”
Luka sill looked puzzled she really seemed pissed at Carter and not at anyone else.
“Ok, what happened?” Abby questioned the 15 year old boy with the broken arm
The kid looked at her a little doubtful but than with a sigh started to talk. “We were at this party, and since it was a school night and we weren’t supposed to be at the party we decided not to drink, well at least Sean, Michael and I … … …”
Abby saw Carter coming in her direction and rolled her eyes. There was no escaping him. Jesus, it was becoming too much!!
“Carter I’m working on a patient, and if you don’t stop I swear I’ll open my mouth to Luka” She greeted through her teeth.
“I just want to know why. Why would anyone… … … …”
Abby stormed through the hall and into the lounge, closing the door behind her, Carter had followed inside.
“Ok, you want to know why, ok, I’ll tell you why. I’ve changed my mind, because for the first time in my life I can actually say I love the man I’m with.” She stopped staring at Carter suddenly frozen before her. She felt sorry somehow, but far more sorry, that it was him and not Luka the first to hear those words.
“I didn’t love Richard. I married him to stand clear of Maggie and you… … … you were … a great friend Carter and I thank you for all you did for me. But that was it, nothing more than that.”
She opened the door and stormed out, leaving Carter behind to think.
She knew well enough she might have been horrible to him, but it was either tell he truth or have him follow her everywhere till they all got sick and tired and things turned really ugly.
“Hey, is everything ok?” Luka came behind her at the front desk.
She looked back with a smile. “Yeah. It’s fine now”
“Did Carter do something?”
“No, it’s all ok”
“Are you sure?” Luka watched as Carter walked by looking angry at Abby from the corner of his eyes.
“I’m sure” Abby assured looking straight into Luka’s eyes.
Abby entered Jumbo Mart closing her eyes resenting having walked in, as she saw Carter sitting at the waiting table.
“I’m not going to bite, I promise” He announced with a smile.
Abby smiled back and walked further inside going straight for the candies shelve and grabbing a Toblerone.
“Those seem to be working for you”
Abby shyly smiled at him. “I don’t know what happened. … … Actually, I do … … my dad used to stock up a cabinet with these, saying it his and mine. I guess this kid has its grandfather’s taste.”
Carter smiled weekly “Look, I’m … … I’m sorry about how I … …”
“It’s fine… … As long as we know our stories straight”
Carter smiled “We do. …… and… … I don’t want to ruin my friendship with Luka.”
“Good, cause it took you guys what… … … 5 years to get to be friends”
“5 long years of hating each other and you didn’t exactly help to smooth things”
“Oh, gee, thanks a lot!”
Carter giggled “So, … … … … we’re ok?!”
“We’re ok”
“You and Luka want to join me for dinner at that cool Australian place?!”
“Well, we’re not that ok. But if you took Luka, I could have dinner with Neela at McDonald’s without Luka bugging me about the amount of crap I’m eating”
Carter laughed. “I’ll be sure o make the invitation.”
“Thank you”
Confessions:
Abby laid awake in bed studying his face, running a finger through the lines on his face. A big par o her prayed this baby would look like him, have all those lines and another part prayed it didn’t have his nose. But than again it would look weird.
The more she looked at him the more she felt she needed to tell him the truth.
She sighed loudly knowing it was time. There would be no running away, she couldn’t keep this from him, not anymore, it was eating away of her and she knew if she ignored it, it would get worse and she would feel horrible and the next things she knew they could turn out to be exactly like they were before.
“Luka !” a finger poked his arm. He mumbled.
“Luka” She could hear him sigh. “Yes”
“I need to tell you something”
Luka sighed again. “5:00am” was she ever going to sleep tonight? “Does this have to be now?”
“It has to be now”
“Abby, it’s five am, please go to sleep? We’ll talk in two hours”
“Luka, please”
He sighed again and turned around. “God, I hope we don’t have a girl”
“Luka, I didn’t say this before, because I didn’t want to worry you, I just, I knew… … It’s just… …”
“Abby, what?” He smiled.
“I almost got an abortion”
Luka stared at her for a minute “Why?” He asked clearing his throat.
“I was confused… … … I … … … ok, years ago, when I was still married, I got pregnant and I didn’t even hesitated. I thought the baby would be bipolar and I thought I couldn’t be a good mother and I knew Richard would be a horrible father and I just did it. I didn’t give it much thought and than… … well one day Carter asked me about kids and I told him I didn’t even consider and would never consider it”
Luka studied her as she spoke, listening to her every word, paying careful attention to her reactions, her words.
Her eyes had filled with tears and he knew she was petrified of his reaction. He smiled at that taking a hold of her hand.
“What made you change your mind?”
She looked straight into his eyes and saw the answer lingering deep within that deep blue gaze. “You, us”
Luka smiled placing a kiss on her forehead “Than, you wouldn’t do it anyway”
Abby smiled, she had been so scared of his reaction, so petrified that he would flip, be mad at her that she never even considered that he would know the truth even before her.
“Just next time, let me in on it. I’ll back you up, whatever decision you make, but talk to me”
Abby nodded resting her head on his chest and falling asleep within seconds.
Abby sighed before opening the ER doors. She knew by now, the entire staff knew about her pregnancy and today would be a long day. Not to mention that Sam and Carter were both in this shift.
She looked beside her, Luka felt all high and mighty, she rolled her eyes, yeah, everyone would pat him on the back, say things like “Way to go” or “you work fast” or any other crap that would make him feel even more manly, as for her, she would have to deal with Sam staring weirdly at her, Carter asking questions, Susan asking questions, Weaver questioning how long she would work, all the consequences that came with it.
“Are you coming?” Luka looked back at her holding the doors opened for her.
She followed him in and suddenly felt all eyes on them.
“Hey, Dr Kovac, congratulations” Ray pat him on the back and Abby rolled her eyes, as expected.
While the men started to congratulate Luka and do their mainly stupid jokes, Abby took the opportunity to go straight to the lounge.
“Hey” Carter faked a smile as she walked in.
Abby wished she hadn’t come in today. “Hey”
“So, you’re going be a mom” He still faked that stupid smile.
“Yup. That’s pretty much the consequence of getting pregnant” She smiled.
Carter suddenly turned serious. “I just always thought you wouldn’t have kids or didn’t want kids anyway; at least hat’s what you always told me” He seemed both angry and hurt.
Abby sighed; yeah it would be a long day.
“I changed. The kidnapping made me think about a lot of things and forced me to change” She announced raising an eyebrow at him and storming out.
“Abby, MVA in 5, four teenagers” Chuny called out.
Soon Abby was racing back pushing a gurney with a 17 year old screaming in pain.
Carter followed along.
“I just don’t get it. If someone is so sure about not wanting to do something how can they so easily change their minds?” He asked beginning to work on the kid as well.
“Chuny can ask Luka to get in here, tell him Carter’s not handling it.”
Chuny looked at Abby than at Carter.
“I’m handling it perfectly well, you’re the one who seems to not know how to handle your decisions.”
“You know what. Handle it alone” Abby barked storming out of the room and walking into the trauma with Luka.
“Abby? I thought Carter needed help!”
“He doesn’t. I though there were four teenagers”
“The fourth on seems to be doing well, sitting behind curtain 3”
“Well, I’ll handle him”
Luka stared at her, studying her as she left and signaled for Haley to open the door that separated him and Carter.
“Carter, what happened?”
Carter sighed trying o focus attention on the kid and tan looking at Chuny as if telling her “If you open your mouth… … …”
“Nothing. Mood swings I’m guessing”
Luka sill looked puzzled she really seemed pissed at Carter and not at anyone else.
“Ok, what happened?” Abby questioned the 15 year old boy with the broken arm
The kid looked at her a little doubtful but than with a sigh started to talk. “We were at this party, and since it was a school night and we weren’t supposed to be at the party we decided not to drink, well at least Sean, Michael and I … … …”
Abby saw Carter coming in her direction and rolled her eyes. There was no escaping him. Jesus, it was becoming too much!!
“Carter I’m working on a patient, and if you don’t stop I swear I’ll open my mouth to Luka” She greeted through her teeth.
“I just want to know why. Why would anyone… … … …”
Abby stormed through the hall and into the lounge, closing the door behind her, Carter had followed inside.
“Ok, you want to know why, ok, I’ll tell you why. I’ve changed my mind, because for the first time in my life I can actually say I love the man I’m with.” She stopped staring at Carter suddenly frozen before her. She felt sorry somehow, but far more sorry, that it was him and not Luka the first to hear those words.
“I didn’t love Richard. I married him to stand clear of Maggie and you… … … you were … a great friend Carter and I thank you for all you did for me. But that was it, nothing more than that.”
She opened the door and stormed out, leaving Carter behind to think.
She knew well enough she might have been horrible to him, but it was either tell he truth or have him follow her everywhere till they all got sick and tired and things turned really ugly.
“Hey, is everything ok?” Luka came behind her at the front desk.
She looked back with a smile. “Yeah. It’s fine now”
“Did Carter do something?”
“No, it’s all ok”
“Are you sure?” Luka watched as Carter walked by looking angry at Abby from the corner of his eyes.
“I’m sure” Abby assured looking straight into Luka’s eyes.
Abby entered Jumbo Mart closing her eyes resenting having walked in, as she saw Carter sitting at the waiting table.
“I’m not going to bite, I promise” He announced with a smile.
Abby smiled back and walked further inside going straight for the candies shelve and grabbing a Toblerone.
“Those seem to be working for you”
Abby shyly smiled at him. “I don’t know what happened. … … Actually, I do … … my dad used to stock up a cabinet with these, saying it his and mine. I guess this kid has its grandfather’s taste.”
Carter smiled weekly “Look, I’m … … I’m sorry about how I … …”
“It’s fine… … As long as we know our stories straight”
Carter smiled “We do. …… and… … I don’t want to ruin my friendship with Luka.”
“Good, cause it took you guys what… … … 5 years to get to be friends”
“5 long years of hating each other and you didn’t exactly help to smooth things”
“Oh, gee, thanks a lot!”
Carter giggled “So, … … … … we’re ok?!”
“We’re ok”
“You and Luka want to join me for dinner at that cool Australian place?!”
“Well, we’re not that ok. But if you took Luka, I could have dinner with Neela at McDonald’s without Luka bugging me about the amount of crap I’m eating”
Carter laughed. “I’ll be sure o make the invitation.”
“Thank you”