my first fanfic.

[hollygirl]

this is my first fanfic. sooo here it goes.



"Has anyone seen Kovac? And what the Hell is taking Abby soo long?!" shouted kerry. "I'll go get Abby." Holleh offered as she walked towards the door. "Oh my god!! Abby! I need some help in here!" seconds later Ray came running through the door to see Holleh kneeling on the floor by Abby in a pool of blood. "oh my god...Dr. Weaver! Dr. Weaver! we need a gurney in here now!" Kerry came running in and saw Abby and then ran into sutures to get a gurney. She saw a large figure on a gurney jerking violently and flicked on the lights. "Dr. Kovac! what the hell happened?!! Morris get your ass in here!" whats goin on Dr. Weaver? oh my god! Dr. Kovac! hold on cheif I'll extubate." as soon as Luka was free from the gurney he jumped up and staggered to the window where Abby's bloody handprint stained the glass. He put hid hand up to it and looked through the glass where he saw Kerry, Holleh and Ray lefting Abby's lifeless body out of the pool of blood onto the gurney. His knees gave out and he sank to the floor in loud sobs. He began praying in croation to himself when Morris walked over and helped him up."hey...Luka, Abby will be ok. sh-shes a strong girl and.." Morris was soon cut off. Luka Bolted out the door and was at her side." Abby, A-Abby. come on...look at me." he said as he took her hand. Soon she was hooked up to all sorts of feotal moniters, heart moniters, IVs, etc. " Call the O.R. tell them to prep for a c-sec. and possible placental abruption and page Coburn stat!" Kerry said as she placed an oxygen mask on Abby's face."Heart rates are dropping pressures dropping!" "hang two units of o-neg." As everyone tried to get Abby stable Luka's eyes filled with tears he lowered his face close to hers and gently kissed her forehead, whispering to her softly. " Come on Abby.....please, please, squeeze my hand. if you can hear me please just...just squeeze my hand! open your eyes som- something." Luka choked out in between sobs. And then for Just a moment it was like they were the only two in the room. there was no screaming machines or yelling doctors and nurses, nothing. Luka could hear Abby's voice. "I'm pregnant..." He remembered that night perfectly. The night their lives changed. "You did what you had to do....it doesn't mean we can't be together." he had told her. "I didn't do it..I couldn't. I want to keep it..I want us to have this baby." "I hope you know how much I love..this...All of this." more and more flashbacks were flooding his mind. and suddenly he was back in reality. And reality was that the one he loved the most was on this gurney dying. "Luka? Luka? Luk.." "what?"he quickly answered when he realised Kerry was talking to him. "She's stable. were going to bring her up to the OR now." "ok...uh kerry." yeah?" "hows the baby's heartrate?" he got out in between sobs. "it's steady for now." As they were wheeling Abby to the OR Luka was begging her to open her eyes.. to look at him.. anything. and she softly squeezed his hand in the elevator. He then squeezed hers back tightly holding on to it. Her eyes slowly opened and Luka looked down and saw the fear in her eyes. They flooded with tears and they slowly ran down her cheeks. " shhh...hey..its gonna be alright Abby..don't cry, I'm here. you are going to be fine...Do you understand me? You and this baby are going to be fine." all she could do was nod her head slowly as she blinked away more tears. Luka gently carressed her face with his free hand. They were now in the OR where there was a cooler with endless bags of blood and a neo-natal team all ready for the baby. "pressures dropping!" someone shouted. "hang another 2 units of o-neg stat!" Coburn said as she cut accross Abby's abdoman. "There's too much blood, I cant see a damn thing! more suction!" Coburn then quickly pulled out a tiny, blue, lifeless baby and passed it off to the neo-natal team. "it's a boy." "Did you hear that Abby? we have a son." "He..he isn't crying..why isnt he crying? Luka wha-"
"Abby...he's premature..he is having trouble breathing. but they are going to take care of him dont worry." "Luka..can we name him Joe?" "yeah sure. Joe is a great name. I like it." "Damn it! I can get controll of this bleeding!" Coburn said. "Pressures dropping, heart rates dropping!" "Abby? Abby?!? stay with me . please..come on. open your eyes Abby!" Luka said terrified. "Luka, I need you consent to do a hysterectamy. I can't stop the bleeding and if we don't do this she will bleed to death." as Dr. Coburn finished Luka looked down at Abby and hesitated for a moment but then looked up at Corburn and said " Yes. Do it. Do what ever you have to do to save her!" "Ok. lets move fast people! Suction." minutes later machines started screaming and someone was shouting " Pressures dropping, heart rates dropping! V-fib! paddles, charge to 200...clear! nothing charge to 250...clear..heart rates up. Shes losing blood faster than we can get it in..uhh start another line stat." Luka's life with Abby just passed before his eyes, he was sort of in a state of shock. he almost lost her! "why!?!? why he thought to himself. why Abby?" Luka was leaning over her now whispering in her ear things he hadnt said to her out loud. "I love you Abby. Sooo much. more than you will ever know. you can't leave me, or our son. understand. wake up, look at me. an-anything." he then just sat there saying "I Love you." over and over as he gripped her hand. They were now sewing her up, she was stable and stopped bleeding after the difficult delivery and hysterectamy. As Luka took of his gown and mask he looked around the room and saw endless bags of empty blood bags..and then there were the pools of blood..blood everywhere...Abby's blood. once again in the elevator Luka looked down at Abby, she was so pale and then suddenly she gave his had a weak squeeze. "Abby!?" Luka gasped as he bent down over her, looking into her eyes that were filling with tears once more.."Luka.." Abby softly whispered.."shh Abby..your ok now, its alright. you dont need to say anything." "yes I do." "what?" "I love you too." Luka's eyes were teary and he smiled down at her..wiping away a few tears, he then kissed her softly on the cheek. at that she drifted back to sleep having no energy at all. "She heard me" Luka thought..."she heard me."


what do you think? update?

[Lubyfanatic316]

Great start!

[<3 LubyII <3]

Yea, update!

[Andy]

Yeah great start and update asap!

[megan]

oh really great..keep going...

[rhodeisland011]

That was really great! It might be easier to read with paragraphs and spaces betweeen dialogue though...You should definately update!

[*Natalie*]

Loving this start
Update soon

natalie x

[hollygirl]

Luka's POV


So here I am making my was up to the NICU to get my first real look at Joe. Our son. I still can't believe he's here. It's official, Abby and I are parents.

"Hello Dr. Kovac, before you go in you'll need to scrub up and put on a gown. Oh yeah, I'm Linda."

"Ok...uhhh..after that, and I go in. Where will my son be?"

"I'll take you to him and his NICU nurse Jen will explain everything, I saw him earlier and your son is beautiful. Ok soo now that your all clean, here's a gown."

"Thanks."

"Alright Dr.Kovac, are you ready to meet your baby?"

As we walk towards Joe's incubator all I can do is nod.

"Here he is, and this is Jen. She will be looking after him at all times." Linda says as she turns to Jen. "Ok Jen, just tell Dr. Kovac whats going on, answer any questions he may have, and I'll see you tomorrow. Congratulations on the beautiful baby and good luck with everything Dr. Kovac."

"Hi, I'm Jen and I'll be Joe's nurse from 7 at night to 7 in the morning...and from 7 in the morning to 7 at night a nurse named Camie will be here to look after this little cutie...well I'll give you two a minute."

As I look down at him he looks helpless, his tiny body almost totally covered by tubes and wires. He is a beautiful baby boy, he looks just like Abby. Her soft brown hair, her light complexion, her curved lips, and her nose. She had told me that she wanted it to look like me saying she want him to have my "dark hair, and gorgeous, deep blue eyes." and those were her exact words.

"Hi Joe, I'm your daddy and you look just like your mommy. We love you very much and we want you to get stronger so you can come home. But don't worry, your not the only one who needs to get stronger. Your mommy does too, shes been through a lot today. Well Joe, I really don't want to leave you. But I should be there when mommy wakes up. Volim Te."

Now I'm back in Abby's room, she hasn't woken up yet and she still hasn't gotten her color back, she just looks so drained of life.

"Luka..."

"Hey! You're up, how you feeling?"

"uhhh...sort of like I've been hit by a car I guess. really sore. Oh my god! Joe! how is he? Have you seen him yet?"

"yeah, actually I just got back from there. He is beautiful, looks just like you."

"I didn't ask you if he looked like me..I asked you how he was? he...he's alright isn't he?"

"Well, he's on a ventilator, his lungs aren't developed enough for him to breath on his own. He's very weak, and very tiny. Only about 3lbs. 6ozs. They have him on steroids to help develop his lungs and they aren't sure if there will be any brain damage from the oxygen deprivation. But right now he's stable."

"Can we go see him?"

"yeah of course we can."

I'm pushing Abby towards Joe and I can tell she's crying. I hate how nothing I say will make her feel like everything will be fine. As we stop in front of Joe, Jen comes and introduces herself to Abby, who's really not even listening to anything shes saying. Abby has her hand on Joe's head gently stroking his cheek with her thumb.

"why did this happen to us? Haven't we been through enough in our lifetime. It's not fair Luka, why Joe? Why our baby?" she choked out in between sobs.

"I know Abby, but Joe will be ok, look what he's proved so far just surviving the birth."

"How do you know? How do you know he will be ok? What if he....What if he doesn't make it Luka?"

"You can't think like that. You just have to have faith that he'll be ok, I mean you're his mother. If you made it through every obstacle in your life so far, so can Joe."

"Oh...Luka, I hope you're right, I don't know if I could handle losing him. We made him, this beautiful little baby, he's half you, half me. And that means everything to me. There is no one in this world I would rather be with than you."

I took her hand, gripping it tightly and then we just sat there in silence looking at this tiny life we had created.

"Hey Abby...I was thinking about his name. Joe. Is it short for Joseph? and we still need to think of a middle name, unless you already thought of one."

"Yeah..I guess Joe is short for Joseph and actually I was thinking about maybe Matthew for his middle name."

"Joseph Matthew Kovac. I like it" I said smiling at her, she smiled back. and man was she beautiful when she smiled, her color had somewhat returned but she looked absolutely exhausted.

"Abby...you look like you could use some rest, why don't you let me take you back to your room so you can sleep and get back some strength."

"I am tired, but could we stay A little while longer?? please.."

"Of course we can, but not to long. Do you think in the spelling of Joseph we could drop the "h"? so it would be J-O-S-E-P?"

"Yeah thats fine...but may I ask why?"

"It's Croation"

"Oh, I see."

"Yup. so are you ready to go?"

"I guess..." she said with a sigh turning back to Joe. "Bye baby..I will be back tomorrow. I promise."

"You will see him tomorrow. He'll be fine, Jen will be with him all night."

Back in Abby's room now we are both lying on her bed, my arms are gently around her so I won't hurt the giant closed wound across her abdomen, Her head is resting on my chest with my chin sitting on the top of her head. Her eyes are closed and she softly whispers "Luka, I love you." I'm looking down at her smiling and I say "yeah, I know."

[lubyluver]

Great update! Good story! This is kinda somewhat how I picture it. Unfortunetly TPTB will never do it that way so oh well! Keep going!

[megan]

very cute..update soon please...

[<3 LubyII <3]

Nice update!

[rorygilmore]

Love it, it's beautiful!!! So emotional, specially your 2nd update. Really love it!!!

[*Natalie*]

Great update

Hope you do more oson

natalei x

[hollygirl]

Abby's POV


I'm laying here with Luka, he's snoring....his arms are around me and I just feel so safe. So warm. I'm thinking about what happened the day before and I just can't believe it. And I still don't understand why I didn't tell anyone that I was unbelievably dizzy. I was so dizzy I couldn't even put a central line in. And why didn't I yell for someone when I felt the shooting pain through my stomach? Or when I saw the blood on my hand. I just stood there, thinking:

"OH MY GOD! where's Luka? Is he Ok? What is happening to me? stay awake Abby....don't pass out. SAY SOMETHING! get someone to help you"...

But nothing came out and all I could do was stumble backward put my had to the window and pass out......... I wish Luka would wake up. I want to talk to him about the surgery..about the birth of our son. About what happened to me. To him. his face is bruised and his wrists have marks on them, all the way around them....like if he put a watch on, it would cover them up.

"Luka?! Luka?! wake up!" I say as I grab his shoulder and push him back and forth. "LUKA!!"

"I'm up...I'm up...what's wrong?"

"I...I just wanted to talk to you, about yesterday...about what happened to you..what happened to me..where you were? I was looking for you...and everyone was asking me where you were.....sooo, where were you? and what the hell happened to your face? And where did the marks on your wrists come from?"

"Ok...uhh..that fake EMT in training Mary, was in the suture room and she locked the door and Sam was in there and I wanted to come in so I was going to break the door down if she didn't open it..so then she opened it and I was held at gun point and then I was going to kick Steve's ass and Mary stabbed me in the neck with a needle and then I fell to the floor and was kicked in the face. Then I passed out I guess...I was paralyzed but I could hear everyone..Sam was trying to intubate me and she just kept saying she was sorry. But she eventually got it and then they dragged her off. And the marks on my wrists are from me trying to get out of restrains that held me to the gurney...... Now tell me what exactly went on with you. "

"Oh my god Luka! I had no idea! You were what Sam wanted me to go check! As she was walking to leave we asked her where the chart was and she said she left it in sutures and to go get it now...and then she turned and looked right at me and said "Ok Abigail?" and I was like why did she just call me Abigail? I could tell that something was wrong so the security guards asked them to come back and thats when they pulled out the guns. They started shooting and I fell over this cart and smashed my head into something...I was soooo dizzy when I got up.. my head was bleeding and then Halleh came over and asked if I was ok..I said yeah but that was kinda lying..because I was so dizzy that I couldn't see straight. Then we all went over to Jerry and when I was doing the central line I had to stop because I felt awful. Then I went into the room next door to get something and thats when the pain gripped my abdomen...I bent over and when I stood up I stumbled backward and my hand was cov-"

"I saw you." Luka quickly said before I could finish.

"what!?" I quickly asked in a panic.

"I saw you.........through the window..I was thrashing back and forth to try to free my self from the restrains..thats where these marks came from and I saw you. I was so scared Abby! You have no idea."

My eyes started to fill with tears and then I began crying. Luka started crying too and that just made me cry even harder.

"When I saw you gasp and bend over all I could think was oh my god whats wrong...and then when you stood up and stumbled backward I knew something was terribly wrong and I tried even harder to undo the restrains that tied me to the gurney...and thats when you put your hand up to the glass and collapsed...leaving a bloody hand print staining the glass....you have no idea what it feels like to see the one you love the most only feet away from you collapse and there you are...there is nothing you can do. your helpless. All you can do is watch in fear."

"Oh Luka! I am so sorry you had see that...I don't know what I would have done if it were reversed..It must have been horrible. but I really....I really don't want to talk about that anymore...I can't take anymore.......I want to know what happened in surgery."

Oh god..I can't believe Luka had to witness that! It must have been terrifying! I don't think I have ever seen him cry so hard ...I have seen his eyes tear up but never have I seen him break down and cry. I don't know how much more of this we can take today but I need to know what went on in that OR.

"Ok..well when we got in there...you.....you had lost so much blood...and they made the incision and blood just pored out. When they got to the baby and pulled him out he wasn't moving...he was totally blue...and I was so scared that he was..... well you know..and then they passed him to the NICU team and he was intubated and rushed out of the room.....you..."

He paused trying to hold back the tears and loud sobs...and then a few seconds later he continued..

"You went into v-tac....they shocked you at 200 and then again at 250...I was scarred that I was going to lose you right there..but your heart rate went up..and thats when Coburn told me that she needed to......she needed to do a.......a hysterectomy or you would bleed....to death....after I heard that sentence I sat there and then I had to tell her to do it so that I wouldn't lose you."

"Oh..my...god....I had..I was.......they.." I tripped on my words in shock after what he had just told me....

"They used paddles on me? and then they had...to...do a hysterecatmy....oh my god.......Luka.....I.....I-"

" I know...Abby.. I know.. but we're ok now...I'm here. It's ok.."

He's cradling me in his arms now...I can't believe it! I just can't believe what happened to us! Now I really don't know what we'll do if we lose Joe....we won't be able to have another baby..and that's something I can't live without after seeing him...I need to go see him...I need to go see my son.

"Luka! Luka we have to go see Joe....we have to go see him now."

"Ok..ok..lets go."


I might not be able to update for a while after this because I'm going on a vacation.... so you guys will have to wait for the next part.

[megan]

oh geez...well have fun on vaca! haha i guess we will just have to suffer