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Post by Maryna on Jul 17, 2006 6:31:29 GMT 10
update really soon!!!
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Post by hollygirl on Jul 17, 2006 12:07:17 GMT 10
Chapter 4: With You Gone
Looking back if we had one more night to spend I would steal every second I would never let it end Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me I will never leave this part of you behind
"You need to tell him sweetie." thats what they all said. yeah...if they want him to know, they can tell him themselves...I don't think he needs to know..whats he going to do..tell me he gets it on weekends. I think not. maybe he will have NO parental rights at all..no, thats not really what I want. I want him to come here. help me through this pregnancy..help me raise it...and love me forever and ever. but I know that is impossible. He made that very clear. god...I think I'm going to kill carter if he ever talks to me again about something that isn't work related..and I swear to god if Chuny, Halleh or Susan told anyone I'm pregnant...I'll kill them too...and these aren't my hormones talking.
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on I want to but I wanted you Now you stay in my head I'm not over you yet I try to but I wanted you
What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace 'Cause it starts in your eyes and It filled up all the space in my heart I know I will always remember and I know that it goes with me I will never leave this part of you behind
I am at work...locked in the bathroom, throwing my guts up. I hope Luka is having as much fun as I am! Susan has knocked on the door a few times..but every time I get up to open it I just feel dizzy...and sit back down. I'm resting against the stall and my knees pulled around my chest, I'm in a little ball. Suddenly the door flies open and Susan gets down on her knees staring at me. "You ok sweetie?" She asks helping me stand. do I look ok? "No..Susan, I'm not..not really." dumb question...next. "Have you seen an OB yet...for some prenatal care?" crap..I guess I should do that.."No." not such a dumb question but..next. "Are you going to tell him?" Ha! you wish..."Nope." Next...
"Abby! you have to tell him!" She say as we walk into admit....no I don't...I don't have to tell him...it my life...get your own problems Susan..stop trying to solve mine...."No I don't." She rolls her eyes and looks around to make sure no one is around. "Yes you do! What are you going to tell him when he comes back...and you either have a baby..or are huge and ready to pop the kid out any minute!?" she has a point there..but oh well...
"I'll tell him Carter knocked me up...he'll get a kick out of that one." Susan turns around to face me.."Abby if you tell him he'll come back!" He probably would.."Maybe I don't want him to come back!" oh my god! did I really just say that! of course I want him to come back! "Oh come on Abby..you love him!" I guess so...I mean I know so...why is she always right!? "Maybe I don't want to love him anymore!" oh wow! where did that come from...I start to walk away..and then Susan is right in front of me. "Look Abby, just tell him! its his kid!" His! his! sure his sperm made its way through my body and attacked my egg creating a baby, but its growing inside of me! I'm going to have to push it out! its more mine than his!
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on I want to but I wanted you Now you stay in my head I'm not over you yet I try to but I wanted you
Make no mistake I'm here in this place And I'm waiting around for you And I can't help it I'm still searching For some way to get through
I will always remember
"And what would you like me to do Susan! call collect!? Hello operator I would like to make a collect call to Africa!"
"Yeah!" Is she serious! Yeah right! he'll find out when he finds out! he'll find out when he calls me! "They are going to want to know where in Africa! and all I know is that he is in the congo..thats not enough information!" Try to come up with an answer to that one. just then I see Carter walking toward me...ew. don't talk to me..I hate you..don't talk to me you life ruiner. "Abby..you got a sec?" ugh. he did it..he talked to me. "Not really Carter.. what do you want!?"
"You got an E-mail from Luka." damn! now Susan is going to want me to e-mail him back and tell him I'm pregnant..."Thats nice, what did it say." I ask as I sign some charts. "I didn't read it." he didn't read it...well someone must have...Frank probably. "I know some one read it...so just tell me what it said because..I really don't have time to read it." I am curious about what it says...maybe I should go read it. "Abby no one read it....What is your problem?" Is he serious! whats my problem...I hate him..and I'm pissed at Luka. "Whats my problem?! Your my problem! you and Luka! He thinks I love you! thats why he broke up with me!! do you know what he said! he said 'I'm done! I'm done ok! Carter can have you!' do you know what that feels like!? No you don't! so don't ask me what my problem is!" I scream at him and then storm off. Susan follows me and then of course says it! "You can e-mail him back and tell him." Ugh I'm not in the mood anymore! why can't everyone just leave me alone!
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on I want to but I wanted you Now you stay in my head I'm not over you yet I try to but I wanted you I wanted you I will always remember I will always remember
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Post by rorygilmore on Jul 17, 2006 16:14:59 GMT 10
WOW...yeah, Abby...you could mail him back!!! HE MUST KNOW!!!!
Update soon, can't wait to know what Abby's going to do!!!
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Post by Maryna on Jul 17, 2006 18:24:35 GMT 10
updaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate sooooooooooooooooon!!!
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Post by charlieluby on Jul 17, 2006 18:27:22 GMT 10
I love it!
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Post by lubyfan on Jul 17, 2006 19:43:59 GMT 10
Great update!
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Post by luby2534 on Jul 18, 2006 6:56:26 GMT 10
Waiting for your next update. This fanfic is great !!!
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Post by hollygirl on Jul 18, 2006 12:41:49 GMT 10
Chapter 5: Please Remember
Time, sometimes the time just slips away And you're left with yesterday Left with the memories I, I'll always think of you and smile And be happy for the time I had you with me Though we go our separate ways I won't forget so don't forget The memories we made
Please remember, please remember I was there for you and you were there for me Please remember our time together When time was yours and mine And we were wild and free Please remember, please remember me
So...Just as I suspected, Susan told me to E-mail Luka..I am sitting here...in front of the computer screen debating weather or not to open Luka's e-mail or just delete it....I am curious to know what it says....but..then again..it might just piss me off some more. Everyone has gathered behind me and I am not opening it until they leave. "Would everyone just back up! back away..jesus...don't you guys have patients?" Just as I am saying all this I hear a familiar voice coming from down the hall...and for once I am grateful to hear it. Weaver. "She is right! would all of you grab some charts and clear the board! you all can't be on break all at the same time!" She gets closer and every one runs off in different directions.
"How about you miss Lockhart...don't you have some patients to see?" ha...in your face..I don't. I am off...off, off, off. "No...I'm off...just checking some e-mail." maybe. "well...would you mind staying and doing some paper work?" ughhh...I don't really want to...I'm not feeling to great...And I have to go talk to Coburn..but before I can speak she starts up again. "You know what...you don't look so good...why don't you just go home...I'll get some one else to do the paperwork." woah...did Weaver just tell me to go home..oh no. she must of heard about me and Luka...well then again, who hasn't heard about it? "Yeah..good idea..thanks dr. weaver." I quickly back away from the computer and leave. totally forgetting about the E-mail.
Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say And it's sad to walk away With just the memories Who's to know what might have been We leave behind a life and time we'll never know again
Please remember, please remember I was there for you and you were there for me And remember Please remember me Please remember, please remember I was there for you and you were there for me Please remember our time together When time was yours and mine And we were wild and free Then remember, please remember me
I'm making my way through OB looking for Coburn....All the same people work up here....I have stopped and talked to a few of them. Oh there she is! "Janet!" She looks up from her chart and walks over to me. "Abby! hey!" ok..Abby...just tell her...I'm pregnant and need an OB..its that simple. "I uh...I'm pregnant...and need an OB." The expression on her face is a surprised one, and a smile spread across her face....mine was surprised too...but then I bursted into tears. "Congratulations!" I look to the floor and the smile on her face dissapears. "It wasn't something I expected...." Oh no...don't cry again.
"Is it something you want?" yeah..I mean I think so.....I can't get rid of this baby...I can't do that to Luka..If he ever found out...I just can't...and I want it...if not now..when..this may be my last chance. "Yeah..." She brings me into her office and tells me to sit down. "Who is the father? I didn't even know you were married." "I'm not...I don't even have a boyfriend anymore...he knocked me up...dumped me...and went to Africa." oh..wow, that sounded a little harsh..it wasn't all his fault...I mean I asked for it. "Wow..what a jerk..who was it?"
"Luka Kovac." she gasped and her eyes widened. "No way!" yeah..I wish I was lying..I wish I could say..he was still here...and that we were going to do this together...but unfortuantly..thats not the case. "So you are going to do this all by yourself? I nod..and she gives me a little appointment card. and a prescription for pre-natal vitamins...her pager goes off and she has to go...so, I make my way back down to the ER and I see Susan walking toward me. "Did you E-mail him! what did his say?" DAMN! I didn't read it!! and I didn't send him one! "No Susan! I didn't E-mail him! I didn't read his! I don't want to! He doesn't have to know!" everyone is looking at us.....I have been causing more scenes lately...I am usually not a scene maker...but I can always blame my hormoes..and Luka....and Carter...and everyone else that is annoying me.
"ABBY! You have to tell him! If you don't I will!" oh! no she won't I will HURT her! I will cause physical pain! "Tell who what?!" Carter! mind your damn buisiness! "TELL LUKA THAT I'M PREGNANT!" oh no! I didn't Just say that! oh my god..I did...Luka...please come home. I can't do this alone.
And how we laughed and how we smiled And how this world was yours and mine And how no dream was out of reach I stood by you, you stood by me We took each day and made it shine We wrote our names across the sky We ran so fast, we ran so free I had you and you had me Please remember, please remember
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Post by rorygilmore on Jul 18, 2006 15:11:45 GMT 10
*GASPS* OH MY GOD!!!! SHE YELLED THE TRUTH TO CARTER!!! I'm speechless, your fic is great!!! MORE, MORE, MORE!!!! update sooooooooooooon!!!!!
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Post by anna982 on Jul 18, 2006 15:27:45 GMT 10
[glow=red,2,300]UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/glow]
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Post by lubyfan on Jul 18, 2006 17:54:35 GMT 10
Update soon
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Post by Maryna on Jul 19, 2006 1:05:37 GMT 10
updaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate soooooon!
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Post by luby2534 on Jul 19, 2006 7:27:13 GMT 10
You have to update. Please !!!!!!!!!
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Post by hollygirl on Jul 19, 2006 14:28:50 GMT 10
Chapter 6: I'm Lost Without you
I swear that I can go on forever, again Please let me know that my one bad day will end I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips, and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone? 'Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you
Well....I still can't believe I told Carter...I mean I didn't just say it...I yelled it at the top of my lungs..I think the whole hospital heard me...its 1 AM and here I am eating ice cream...picking all the pieces of Oreo cookie out....I know someone is going to tell him...after I left they all probably read the E-mail...and e-mailed him back saying Abby is pregnant. My thoughts are interrupted by the phone...good god, who could possibly be calling me at 1 AM? "Hello?" I say as I sit back down on the couch with my ice cream. " Hello, this is a collect call, would you like to except the charges?" collect call? who would be calling me collect in the middle of the night? seconds before I hear his voice I figure it out. Luka...maybe I should just hang up..."Abby?" I'm speechless, I don't know what to say.."Ab..are you there? I know you're probably mad at me...but I.." What the hell..."I'm here.."
"Hey.."
"What are you doing calling so late?"
"Oh..sorry, what time is it?" you can't count? "Its 1:25 AM."
"sorry...I hope I didn't wake you.." good thing you didn't...because if I was asleep and then you woke me up, I wouldn't been to happy. "No..no..I was awake."
"What are you doing up so late?" I have to tell him...but if he wants to talk about why I'm up instead...thats fine by me. "Eating ice cream." and it is damn good. "Are you picking all the little cookie pieces out?" woah...that is kinda weird. "How did you know I was eating cookie ice cream...and picking all the cookies out?"
"That is your favorite kind..and you always picked the cookies out..." smarty pants. "Luka...I know you didn't call me to ask me what I was doing at the moment..so...why exactly did you call?"
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now? I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming And if you will keep me from waking, to believe this
Are you afraid of being alone? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you
"I called to talk to you Abby.....I am so sorry...I really am..I hope you can understand that I didn't mean any of those things I said....because you are pretty...very pretty...and I wanted to know how you were doing?" oh I don't know...tired, angry, depressed, pregnant, I could go on and on. "I need to tell you something. ok? I don't how to say this.....and before I tell you, you have to promise me you won't freak out and rush back here."
"I promise..whats wrong.." oh my god..I can't do this...I can't..."Abby please don't cry..you can tell me anything." its not that simple..ok...just breath...in, and out...you can do this. I just have to keep thinking that. "I......I..uh..I'm pregnant Luka." ah, I did it...please say something....why is he so quiet...say something! "..h..how?" How!? how do you think!? having sex you moron. "Um..thats not what I ment.....when did you find out?"
"The day after you left."
"Do you know how far along you are?"
"umm....about a month I guess...I have an appointment tomorrow...hows Africa?" yeah...thats right..I'm changing the subject..."Abby...please don't change the subject...I want to talk about this." well we just did..and now I don't want to anymore. "I'm going to have a baby...theres not that much to talk about." well...yeah..I guess there is...but oh well...crap for you...you left. "Yeah...there is...I mean...I got you pregnant...and you expect me just to stay here and forget about it...." Yeah! "Well..We're over Luka...what are you going to do..watch me get fat?"
"I could help you through it..."
"help me through it?"
"Yeah."
"How?"
"Abby...I don't know...I just.."
"Luka...just don't worry about it ok....I only told you because If I didn't some one else would have."
"You weren't going to tell me? What were you gonna do when I got back Abby....what were you gonna say when I saw you?"
"I....don't know...I just....I don't want you to come back just because I'm carrying your child.....I want you to stay in Africa and do what you went to do...help people....promise me you won't come back early..just because of me.. ok?"
"Are you sure?" no...I'm not..I don't know why I just can't tell you that I love you! that I'm sorry! that I need you! that I want you to help me raise this baby! that I want you to come home! what is wrong with me? "Yeah...I'm sure...look..its late.....I have a shift in like 5 hours.."
"Ok....If you need me...just call....I'll come home..."
"I will...bye."
"Bye."
Are you afraid of being alone? 'Cause I am I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight? 'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
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Post by maggie on Jul 19, 2006 15:00:11 GMT 10
stupid luka! if he doesn't come back, he should be eaten by a lion!
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